...She fucks like a star.

The Subsequent Departure

2009-09-26T22:32:00.005+08:00

Oooooh, All Time Low!

Anywho, it's been almost a week now since I took a leave from university. The abrupt time phase never fails to put me in awe, feels like I was just cruising along the highway, looking forward to come back home. Well, tomorrow's journey would just be the opposite direction as semester 1 starts on Monday. Somehow, the feeling is different. The students of Foundation in Engineering (April & July) would be segregated into 3 groups now, indirectly implying a whole new different environment once again. It's back to square one; knowing your friends, foes and competitors well.

"Count your blessings and mind your business." - Sluggo.

Does that apply to you?

Anyways, here's the picture summary! :D

DKNY & BVLGARI GOODNESS! <3

SCHOLARSHIP MONEY HOHOHOHOHOHOOH. 8D

Don't mind the diversion of what I'm saying, but I drive myself crazy because of you. Seriously.

It's 11pm once again, time is ticking time is running out, and I'm still here draining myself away to the very bitter end. I hope I've packed everything properly, though there are a few pieces left here and there.. WARGH FUCK PACKING. To think that I will have to unpack when I reach campus. WELL, FUCK THAT TOO! Dang, I'm in a foul mood.

I probably will not update my blog as much when I'm back in university, so hang in there my dear.

Love again,
Jacy Ong.

The Awkward Sensation

2009-09-25T21:46:00.001+08:00

Somehow.. I don't feel good.

The Forgotten Shots

2009-09-25T12:35:00.006+08:00

tHE I-SUCK-IN-COMING-UP-WITH-BLOG-TITLES Thang

2009-09-24T21:32:00.008+08:00

... and they said that I look tribal today. Hmmm. Whatever ahah.

TODAY WAS AWESOME ANYWAYS! I have not seen the girls in months oh my. Today's gathering was absolutely fantastic fabulous and flawless.

Btw, I've been notified by a couple of friends that the timetable for Autumn 2009/2010 has been out for a few days now. Hearing that, I immediately logged into my Nottingham's OWA for further details. Here comes the load of Semester 1 baby.

Mathematical Techniques
Thermal Science
Calculus 1
Electricity and Magnetism A
Computer Methods
Study Skills
Moral Studies

...it does look initimdating doesn't it? Boy am I glad there isn't any Chemistry though. It's about time to be independent, to be mentally prepared and to be fully geared for my next semester. I'll see you guys in 10 weeks!

Love,
Jacy Ong.

The Encounters

2009-09-22T19:16:00.004+08:00

Coming back to Ipoh gives me such liberation. I've missed so many things in my life, I cannot afford to miss anything else anymore, can I? :)

I finally went out with Junting after such long absence. Come to think of it, so much had been wasted just to suit our egos. Things are looking better now though, so it's cool!

... on the other hand

Met up with Amanda & Wai Kit today to do some shit together. But Wai Kit left earlier soooo..

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! *fangirls*

Retards.

Worst place to be a ho, honestly.

We both look alike in some ways, you dig.

Btw, I think I need a haircut? Gah. I hate haircuts.

The Law of Gravity

2009-09-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

Her best, I would say.

The Rockstar

2009-09-19T20:28:00.008+08:00

......HAZ RETURNED OMGZ!

...for only one miserable week though.

Damn, it's been long I know. It's been generally accepted that 2 months is probably a long duration of time, in views of myself, I think so too. I've left my blog hanging by the balance, losing its own equilibrium as the days pass. Shit, nobody grows up to be a pegasus. But what the hell.

So, where should I start? How can I summarize 2 months into a-few-minutes-worth of blog reading? I guess thats what you get for neglecting a blog. Life in Nottingham nevertheless, has been awesome. I'm surrounded by great friends, not forgetting my old ones as well. You'll be surprised how much time has changed me within this period of time. The way I converse has completely changed, highly likely due to the fact that my friends are all witty and crazy ones. Unfortunately for me, I have only 3 girlfriends. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. The other chinese girls are just *coughcough* how should I put it in a way so that no one gets offended hmmm. We're not of the same frequency and wavelength, bitches. Well, me not speaking Chinese is definitely another factor to this bizarre phenomenon I guess. :S

Nottingham is lovely, despite the sceptics in the end it was true. Lectures and tutorials are unusually enjoyable, except for fucking Chemistry. No disrespect but... GO TO HELL CHEMISTRY YOU MAKE ME SICK I HOPE YOU GET CANCER IN YOUR DICK OR SUMFINK OR NUTTIN! I particularly enjoy Mechanics lectures, as Dr. Toh is just so adorable lol. Light, Waves & Electrons on the other hand, is filled with bullets and trains. My lecturer talks so fast that he could produce rap music by the end of the next semester! My English lecturer meanwhile, is such a dedicated one. When I started off, I sucked in academic writing lol. For real! There were so many areas I needed to improve on. Under the guidance of her throughout the whole 10 weeks, I've improved. I'm really proud of the grammar portfolio I've come up with. I can finally write academically now! YAYYYY. No more creative writing and shit.

The atmosphere had always been great with them.

........

For the past 2 months, though, I've been faced with many different shapes and sizes of life and how people would react towards each other. Meeting new acquintances are always exciting, but sometimes things just go wrong. People tend to misuse your trust for them for something else, to the extent that I nearly got sexually violated for a few times. I've learnt my lesson now, taking heed in whatever I do, in whoever I meet. Those who were being so supportive back then, thanks man.

Ah, what can I say? There were dreadful times, but all in all it's all about having fun and live life to the fullest in university.

& that was why I'm here for in the first place. :)

Speaking about living life, let's talk about my room! Well there's nothing much really. I'm currently with the single shared ensuite bathroom shit thing. Can't wait for Wei to be back so that we could like share the toilet together! Lol, sounded so gay. I'm pretty much satisfied and happy with my room right now, ignoring the fact that there is somehow a great deal amount of dust everywhere. Because the place is always so cooling, I don't see the need for an AC anyway. (I have TWOOOO fans in my room yo!) Nonetheless the only thing I'm afraid of most in my room is cockroaches. The possibility of witnessing one in my room is scarce, however one night I saw one. I completely freaked out.

There are several ways in which Jacy Ong could deliberately put a stop to a cockroach's life.

i) You have to scream first! *screams O MAI GOD!!!!11!!22!!*
ii) You must not panic. As we all know, panic screws things up.
iii) Approach the cockroach like a man. (Results may vary for different genders.)
iv) Back off the cockroach just in case it wants to rape you!
v) Repeat step iii-iv again and again until you've gained some confidence. (This part was the toughest for me, at least.)
vi) Direct and spray as much Ridsect as you want, until it reeks the whole room!
vii) Catch it with a tissue and wrap it up.
viii) Flush it down the toilet with a great amount of detergent.
ix) After it's been flushed, pour more detergent and flush it again, to ensure 100% death of that fucking cockroach.

... Works like a charm, trust me. 8D

Oh yeah by the way, to all SPM and future SPM students, whatever you've been learning or about to learn is pure bullshit. Whoa that was hard to say, considering the fact that I came from the same side.

Yayy. mommy got me a perfume. *runs around in circles* I'll be changing my glasses as well, my current one is just fucked up. Kicked it around, dropped it around. Fuh, poor baby.

Btw, Happy Raya to all my friends regardless whether you're a Muslim or not as we all stand by the quote of 1Malaysia! *cough*

The Next Brave Step

2009-07-06T10:58:00.004+08:00

Navigating my brand new notebook is difficult without a friggin mouse. But I'm getting the hang of it, as usual I suppose. Explain better when I'm trying to see some better days. Definitely would want to thank my parents for my new baby, it's Toshiba M300 I think. Cool silky black exterior, although I really wanted the red one the HDD space made me think twice. After all, it's what on the inside that really matters.

It's quite safe to say that i've almost packed everything in, I just need a few more minor adjustments to do before leaving this Wednesday. To be honest I'm blinded by the cross of both anticipation and apprehension. I'll make my way in the crowd.

&& my cousin is now also my toilet mate! As wrong as that may have sounded, I'm so glad we'll be sharing the ensuite bathroom together. Unfortunately she's on her 4 months holiday right now, so I'll probably be seeing her in September. The sun's up for us, Wei would be doing her volunteer job at the SBS while I'll be settling in Nottingham for new everything.

To everyone who'd be in the same boat as I am, have a clear mind. It's time to discard all the useless memories and shit that has been in your head for the past 6 months. Leaving this was probably the best thing you ever taught me, I'll be back soon.

It's a new pavement now. Falling back to how we're going to build, shape & nurture it.

The Smooth Criminal

2009-07-02T13:29:00.007+08:00

Woke up today with a text from Evon. Little did I know I had to get my ass off the bed and get ready as she's coming over to pick me & Christine up from what I would like to call 'The Last Straw Together'. Not literally of course, we get along pretty much quite well. Though, things were much easier back then when we were in school. Seems like now we're all heading different directions, grasping different dreams. It is undeniably difficult, but we'll pull it through. I hope I won't end up being a complete social outcast when I'm in my university. Highly doubt it, but oh well.

Speaking about myself right now, I'm currently in the slighest dilemma as I have not really done much packing and shit. Would go shopping frenzy this Saturday with my mother, my checklist isn't that simple ya' know! Looks like I'll be putting some incredibly big holes in my mom's wallet. And no, I haven't even talked about getting my laptop just yet for I'm still undecided. Looking for the right practical one is just so hard, all the more I'm really not a computer prodigy. As,

yarororostino: uhm
yarororostino: tell me what specs you want to put in
Hellborn Ycaj Di: wth .________.
yarororostino: you got quite a few choices there..
yarororostino: go to "specs"
yarororostino: and then see XD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: oh god im so stupid XD
yarororostino: XDD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: imma noob in computer stuffs so deal with it!
yarororostino: -enter complex specs here-
yarororostino: there you go
yarororostino: that's what i'd take, i guess
yarororostino: i tried not to take the most expensive things
yarororostino: try selecting that stuff and then look what price it is
Hellborn Ycaj Di: O___________O
Hellborn Ycaj Di: i'll need time to digest all that crapload of unknown words.. XD
yarororostino: XDD

See what I mean? I wasn't born to do IT stuffs, so I'm thankful to have a computer-science-to-be hot guy as a buddy. *cough*

//
To Christine, Vanessa & Evon who would be leaving this week .

Christine and I were practically strangers in Wijaya tuition once, alongside with HuiChin and others.

Vanessa. God, what else should I say about her? My best friend when I was in primary school then.

Evon hahah, someone who wouldn't get mad at all but yet tends to piss me off at times. But I still love you!

As for myself, I'll be leaving next Wednesday for my tertiary education in the University of Nottingham. Alaa, tentulah Malaysia campus lah kan, what were you thinking?! United Kingdom ke? Kalau gitu, saya pun mau. I wanna be as close to Walliams as possible. :D

He's so so so so so hot.

The Blindfolded

2009-06-30T11:25:00.003+08:00

I dream of you last night. But that's really not the case right now, no?

I have come to learn that the media could be such a fuck-off, how they'd go to any extent to twist and warp the truth into something completely different. I strongly believed in him, it's good that he has passed on, far far away from all the deceits and blatant lies.

Right now, I'm sort of restless. Fucking offer letter, I haven't an inkling as to why is it taking them so long just to mail the letter to me?! There are times when I could have broken down and wept till the night's over, but I guess I chose the other path, the road less taken.

Ugh, fuck you for driving me to the last bitter end.

The Reality We Fell Into

2009-06-28T14:29:00.002+08:00

It's been 4 quarters and poofs by the piano, I just got back from Malacca.

The main purpose was actually to pay a visit to my university. My family travelled all the way from Ipoh (starting point, as usual) to Semenyih after dropping by at KLCC as my mom insisted on getting her cosmetics products there. I had to take the chance to indulge myself in the world of parfumes. After all, it's one of my terrible addictions. Do not take any offence to what I'll be saying afterwards, I just found it slightly amusing.

The promogayters were well, self-explanatory and one of them had such a bad stink to himself. It was like a bucketful of sweat & a cup of shit coalesced into one theory of something foul. One of Chloe's appealed to me compared to others, but I'm still undecided. Why has there be so many perfumes?! Fuck you designers.

Headed over to Nottingham after much dread, the good and the bad. I was blown away by the sight of it somehow, it's a well-structured and I assume, well-endowed, white building with greeneries around it. It's the ideal place to study, such condusiveness of the environment is not to be rejected. The bad was, we were not aware of the the fact that the Britains work only five days a week. The guard explained to us that the office was closed, thus the big letdown and disappointed to the four of us in the car. Really, we travelled hundreds of kilometres for nothing. On the bright side, I got to see and feel the university in front of my eyes.

I will probably be going down again on the July 4th, as Nottingham's having an Open Day.

Yaoyao is the most adorable thing ever in Malacca aww. :3

When we're dead, we're somebody. It just takes that much to run across the mind that it's that way I guess. Life's philosophy is so confusing at times. Contraries in my head everytime, it's rather difficult to deal with. But oh well, it's the reality we fell into.

The Legend.

2009-06-26T14:16:00.006+08:00

I can't believe it, it's all so sudden. I'm at a loss for a words actually, for I have never really known this guy nor his music. but of course, there were some really good times of him.

You'll always be remembered and treasured deeply for the unforgettable music, whether you were wronged or not. It's a cruel world.

Rest in peace, MJ.

The Retrolulz

2009-06-24T17:58:00.004+08:00

By yours truly.

The Shocking News.

2009-06-22T15:02:00.003+08:00

..... I'LL BE GOING TO THE UNIVERSITY OF NOTTINGHAM!!!!

Dad : Did mommy call you?
Me : Noooooooo.
Dad : Girl, it's Swinburne...
Me : Oh okay... *trying to sound as happy as possible but I guess I failed*
Dad : *gives out a chuckle* Nottingham hahah!
Me : OH MY GOD SERIOUSLY?!?!?!
Dad : Daddy called and asked for you.
Me : YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY.

Me : MOMMMYYY I GOT NOTTINGHAM!
Mom : I KNOWWWWW. I'm so happy I wanna get off work right now and kiss you.
Me : Awwwwwwwww. Uh.
Mom : So good that you got Nottingham. At least it's not in Sarawak.
Me : I know! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.

Felt like a large boulder has just been lifted off my shoulders, right now for the letter to come. And to settle everything before I leave for the next July intake. Is it me or everything in Malaysia is so prone to last-minute-work? Downright obvious you know what the answer is anyway. Rhetorical much.

//

Anyways, here are some good stuff I came across.

Question :
If you die, what happens to your Myspace?
Like if you die, does your Myspace like deletes itself or does a friend do it? Or does it just sit there unattended?

Answer :
It deletes itself. You see, when you die a little microchip goes off in your brain and instantly deactivates any accounts you may have had in your life. They are inserted a few months after your birth. Everyone has them.

#2
Question :
Help! I'm 14 and I've never ejaculated any sperm! Help?!
im 14 my names ben. i have been masturbating for the best of 5 years, since i was 9! but thats not the point. i have never had a wet dream, and the only thing that comes outta my penis is pee. please help.

ps, i masturbate 3 times daily.

Answer :
wow.

#3
A family was at the dinner table.
The son asked his father, 'Dad, how many kinds of boobs are there?'
The father, surprised, said, 'Well, son, there are three kinds of breasts.
In her 20's, a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm.
In her 30's to 40's, they're like pears, still nice but hanging a bit.
After 50, they're like onions'.
'Onions?'
'Yes, you see them and they make you cry.'

This infuriated his wife and daughter so the daughter said,
'Mum, how many kinds of 'willies' are there?'
The mother, surprised, smiled and said, 'Well, dear, a man goes through three phases.
In his 20's, his willy is like an oak tree, mighty and hard.
In his 30's and 40's, it's like a birch, flexible but reliable.
After his 50's, it's like a Christmas tree'.
'A Christmas tree?'
'Yes. Dead from the root up and the balls are just for decoration.'

First Lady Hillary Clinton and Attorney General Janet Reno were having one of those girl to girl talks. Hillary says to Janet, "You're lucky that you don't have to put up with men having sex with you. I have to put up with Bill, and there is no telling where he last had his pecker."

Janet responded. "Just because I am considered ugly, doesn't mean I don't have to fight off unwelcome sexual advances."

Hillary asks, "Well how do you deal with the problem?"

Janet: "Whenever I feel that a guy is getting ready to make a pass at me, I muster all my might and squeeze out the loudest, nastiest, fart I can."

Well, that night, Bill was already in bed with the lights out when Hillary headed for bed. She could hear him start to stir, and knew that he would be wanting some action. She had been saving her farts all day, and was ready for him. She tenses up her butt cheeks and forces out the most disgusting sounding fart you could imagine.

Bill rolls over and says, "Is that you Janet?."

I will not disappoint if I said these are really some fucking good stuff. One needs a laugh or so anyway heh.

The Awesomenesssssh.

2009-06-21T16:04:00.006+08:00

Bonjour! I wanna take a ride on your discostick, Manson. I dunno what do I see in you. It's horrible! Despite the fact that you may be so ugly, I still want you. *cries*

I've disappeared for yet a few times now. Major apologies to my friends who have been complaining that I've gone missing. XD

Soooooo. Today's father's day. Yeah. Don't care.

Anyways, I totally had so much fun last evening with my same ol' same ol' good ol' good ol' girlfriends! Man, like seriously we haven't had such a huge gathering. Probably it'll be the last for the year, I miss you girls heaps. And fuck myself for not updating myself with the latest news. You guys know what it is. I'm still not over it. I'm depressed hell yeahhhhhh! Don't be surprised if you find me dead over a balcony railing or sumfink or nuttin.

Naww. I ain't like that.

Booooook.

Another boooooooooooook.

I assume she wants somebody. Fresh florist huh. We get it.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TOOOOOO, MOMMMYY. Love love love the overdone smile yo!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDDY. Ich liebe dich. :)

The Worthy & The Worthless.

2009-06-18T14:42:00.003+08:00

This song is so beautiful, tragic but beautiful.

I've been trying to learn up their songs and a few more. Peggy thought my Inevitable cover was pretty good. Now that keeps me motivated.

So glad I found Anberlin. Oh yeah.

The Delusional

2009-06-15T15:50:00.002+08:00

NOTE : People-who-actually-have-the-equilibrium-in-their-fucking-heads content.

This is for the people they want you, Adam wasn't made for us.

I'm so sick of being shunned by the government. I suppose you consider singing the national anthem, a way of bringing people of different differences together. I suppose you consider shoving the impractical slogan up our faces, a way to dismiss the shortcomings you've ever had. I suppose you consider your crediblity and superiority, a way to shut us up. I suppose you never thought of the fucking shit that you put the children through, the oxygen masks we use to merely stay alive are just masks.

I do not question the Federal Constitution, that's something for sure. But doing away with injustice, as far as I've noticed, has never really been an option. I'm speaking generally here, what you're seeing right now is fakevolution. You throw us away when you don't need us, you think of us as garbage in the country. What hell does that make you? Am I sorry that we're all dressed in flaw. You just don't see what we're going through, do you? Pushing aside the more deserving ones, letting in the ineffectual ones. I guess you never knew how much we relied on you, you just never knew.

You put the seeds in us, in this dying tree. You sell each other's shit, making us feel worthless and discarded. Sometimes we wished we were good enough for you, so that we'll know that we're not alone.

I guess after all, we're just a pitiful anonymous.

Being an anonymous we shall be known one day. We'll all bounce back, proving you wrong, making you regret that you had not even wanted to lay one eye on us.

The New 'Rammsteinlulz'

2009-06-14T18:25:00.003+08:00

Adopted from some hot computer science to-be Ukrainian.

Hellborn Ycaj Di: does sonne mean sun or son
Hellborn Ycaj Di: XDDDD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: or song
yarorostino: sun ^^
Hellborn Ycaj Di: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hellborn Ycaj Di: IM GOOOOOOOOOOOOD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: ich will = i will
yarorostino: PERFECT!!!!!! YOURE PREDESTINED TO LEARN GERMAN
yarorostino: nah
Hellborn Ycaj Di: feuer frei = french fries?
Hellborn Ycaj Di: lol
yarorostino: i want
yarorostino: XDDDDDDDD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: for fly?
Hellborn Ycaj Di: fo fly!
yarorostino: nope
Hellborn Ycaj Di: fray?
yarorostino: fo shizzle
Hellborn Ycaj Di: omg srsly?! XD
yarorostino: feuer = fire
frei = free
yarorostino: like...
Hellborn Ycaj Di: oooooooooooohhhhhhhh
yarorostino: "fire!"
Hellborn Ycaj Di: against open burning?! :O

What can I say? I'm predestined to learn Geemanz mothafuckas!

The Start of the Same Craze

2009-06-13T15:40:00.001+08:00

THERE'S BADMINTON ON 811.

YAYYYYYYYYYY. 8D

The Sub-Par

2009-06-13T14:49:00.008+08:00

First of all, OMGZWUT YARO UR GOIN TO RAMMSTEIN'S CONCERT!?!?!

Now that I'm listening to Rammstein, god I wished I stayed up whole night for the tickets. I mean it is pointless indeed, coz it's not like I'll be able to fly over to Germany anyway. ASDFG! I wonder if I'll be able to visit them sometime soon. After all cultural exchange may not be that negative, eh? We definitely need something to knock the living heads off some of the people in the country.

ANYWAYS BITCHES,

It was so kind of my cousins as they took all the trouble to drop me in Ipoh, and went all the way back to Taiping after. Did I tell you about how great the trip was? I'm afraid I haven't. Well we did not really do anything out of the ordinary, don't expect anything of that sort really. But you know, that's where the wonder is. I don't know about you guys, who are maybe, note the word maybe I don't want you dropping bombs on me, who are shrouded in all materialisticity's individualisticity, but as for myself, it was just all the worth for the go.

Oy.. the number of commas in my sentence. I guess that gave you the slightest inkling idea of how my compositions usually are.

Note : Image heavy. And I tried my very best to keep 'em in order but I just couldn't give a damn anymore.

Deformed, I know.

My first webcam session, I think. YAY FOR ME. XD

He was just too cute. Ren said what I did was illegal. I DUN CAREEEEEEEE. ._.

Doraemon obsesso. D:

This book made me cry nonstop.

Blobby, commonly known as Bob. He's such an idiot.

The Semi-Hiatus part2

2009-06-08T11:12:00.004+08:00

For the sake of keeping something alive. The blog.

I'm actually with my gorgeous cousins right now, staying over at their place for a couple of days. I guess it's a way or so to keep me occupied during this really long dreading holidays. I need to do something man, kind of sick of the situation I'm in. Like I always say, patience has never really been one of my virtues, as much as I wished it could be mine. I know it'll all come into the picture soon. Puzzles would soon be completed, giving birth and life to whole new masterpiece. I hope I'll be able to cope with all of it.

.... and I also hope that things will go fine in the ever shining legacy of the Ongs. :)

Anyone missing me yet? :OOO

The Triple Fs

2009-06-06T22:40:00.008+08:00

I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS OLGA DARLIN'. XD

I'm sorta kinda maybe distressed by the fact that mom is not approving of me bringing her ropes over. I'm getting cranky easily lately, so not a good thing.

Anywho, today was yet another awesome day. How many times do I say awesome in a day man.. It's awesome. Well, Kah Men dragged me outta the house today and I can't help but to oblige as I haven't seen her since last year. I missed having her talking to me after school so much. Sometimes she would stay back with me, Kimberly and Val just for a little jamming session. Boy, do I miss those days. Ever since she left for Penang's INTI, certainly things weren't the same. She used to give me random phone calls and we would talk and talk for hours.. At least Wai Kit has been constantly giving me phone calls of nonsence and crap. When I laugh on the phone, it's beyond compare. *hides* I'm well entertained in the worst way possible lol.

Both of us recollected many of our recent things, she told me alot of things about her life there. The least I could do for her is lend her an ear, nothing beats that. I'm not forgetting the weird stares people gave us in JJ, they were looking at me as if I was the only gay in the village or something. Yeah but no but yeah but no but. We were just holding hands and shit. Much better than you pooping in your knickers. Oh wells.

I probably had the most expensive dinner yet. It was awesome, albeit the fact that my stomach was hating on my guts. Maybe it's due to the improper meals I've been taking, when I have something complete I get the nausea.

Bumped into Mr. Lye! <3

Fantastic fabulous flawless.

I kept poking this baby boy till he woke up. ;_;

I'll be away for a few days from now onwards. Going over to my cousin's for a few days. It's so gonna be fantastic fabulous and flawless.

Miss me heaps! 8D

The Sore and Careless

2009-06-04T15:37:00.011+08:00

Oy! I've been missing for a few days now. I'm here to attend to you.

The major factor contributed to my faitgue and nausea was the camp I guess. It wasn't all that fun, so don't expect me to go HOMGWTFBBQ IT WAS LYK U KNOOOO SOOOO FUN. No shit, not gonna get that from me. However so though, I enjoyed it from time to time. Spent most of my time helping out cooking in the kitchen, since I hardly cook at home anyway really. Totally got shot down by WaiTheng damn, but oh well I actually tried to talk her out the whole evening and yeah guess what it sorta worked. Even the thickest wall could be broken.

Night-stalking was horrible! Amanda, MeiYee & I literally got bitten by mosquitoes throughout the whole activity despite the rather-sorta-maybe-dark surroundings. Pressing myself against some unknown wooden cabinet, trying hard to keep quiet wasn't reassuring trust me. I can't stand these dirty places, not unless I have a go-clean at it. Yet again, I can't be bothered to do it. I'm a walking contradiction. >_>

.... to think that I'll be able to fall asleep soundly overlooking the sky at night. BLASPHEMY LAH WEH! Not only that I couldn't sleep at all, bugs were such a pest. I was so envious of MeiYee who totally had her eyes closed right after she hit the mattress, while we were simply restless maaaannnn. ChuiAnn was at the other end of the mattress. Amanda was right next to me stealing Nie. Mutters was all you would be able to hear that night. About like 4:30 am, I managed to finally doze off for awhile. You know what that part meant? I GOT TO SLEEEEEEEEEP. Unfortunately I was awaken by whistle sounds and abrupt yellings at like 5:30 or something. Hadn't a clue what was happening. DAMNIT. ASDFG!

Oh yes another thing, it has been made up to some extent that some meteorite landed on our volleyball court or sumfink or nuttin.

I couldn't wait to get back home. And I did. Unpacked my backpack (which was probably the part I despised the most, I hate unpacking srsly), hit the shower, and went to bed since then. AWESOME.

...the heck? God bless you.

Forgot to rotate the picture. >_>

Forgot to rotate again. <_<

Went for movies yesterday with Amanda, watched Monsters vs Aliens and Terminator Salvation. Blobby was so cute omg hahaha. But the movie other than that was mediocre, just mediocre if you ask me. Terminator Salvation was just full of action and thrill. Much better than Monsters vs Aliens. I also bumped into Audrey, Sookmun, Suyen, Reece, Sam [EDIT] and others. The day ended with perfumes, literally this time. I was scouting all the way from Sasa, to Dior Lancome Estee Lauder Ralph Lauren DKNY and others. I had such a hard time choosing my favourite. I'm kinda torn in between DKNY, Ralph Lauren & Lancome. Shit.

I'm looking forward to some horror movies now.

// EDIT

I'M WATCHING POCOYO. HE IS SO CUTE LAH AIYO.

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*cries again* T_T

The Cutest Thing Ever.

2009-05-30T12:15:00.003+08:00

.... well for now, till I bump into yet another cute thang.

BUT HOLYSHITOMG! I've been watching Pocoyo on Playhouse Disney for a few days now. Okay I know I'm like gonna turn 18 soon and should really need to get a life, but I love him! He's so cute. I wished I could adopt him or sumfink or nuttin ya' know. *cries*

He's my baby! >:D

The First Encounter

2009-05-28T22:23:00.005+08:00

What the silly kid and her friends did today. 8D

The Latest Update

2009-05-28T14:03:00.000+08:00

Got a call from dad minutes ago.

Dad : Have you received the thing you orderred?
Me : Hahah eeeyyyyyyyeesssssssss!
Dad : When you need me to get you something, you'll get all nice.
Me : AFAFDSGFDH
Dad : Any news from JPA?
Me : So far, none.
Dad : Daddy has friends there, most likely you'll be going to Swinburne in Sarawak.
Me : Nottinghaaaaaaammmmmm. But oh well, Swinburne.

I'm thankful, honestly. But damn.

The Unusual

2009-05-27T23:46:00.006+08:00

Watching 8 Out of 10 Cats at the moment, there's no word to describe my obsession with Walliams. Oh shit I wanna die someone please kill me now, can't help but to feel aggravated that it's a no-win situation. >_>

Went for Angels and Demons with Amanda after school today. Suspence here and there, though, I have to say I didn't really get the terms much. Damn you know what, I still think Digital Fortress was Dan Brown's powerhouse. I'm not those of the sponges that could absorb stuffs concerning religion, blasphemy, controversy, logic, physics and science at one go. I'd love to hope for a remake of Digital Fortress in the the form of a rolling film, I reckon it'd be as pulse-running-written story as the book was. To those who haven't read Digital Fortress yet, it's recommended by Jacy Ong. 8D

I got a reeeeaaaalllllyyyyy cute pair of glasses! I've seen people wearing it but oh well... FUCK 'EM!!

Do I look smarter in these? Or have I just made myself look like a fool. XD

Oh and did I tell you that the moment I stepped into the sudut bacaan, some girl said I looked like Adam Lambert whoa. She was a rather uber friendly girl I guess, fired me with questions and shit. I was being real nice and demure while Amanda was losing it in the most literal way. You just suck maaaannn. ;)

Anonymous : ADAM LAMBERT! You look like Adam Lambert!
Me : Uhhhh, okay thanks? o-O
Amanda : IN WHAT WAY?!!??!?!
Me : *laughs*
Anonymous : Though, he has a brighter smile than you.
Me : ..... ASDFG!!!!11one!!11! (Well, not like I can smile that good. XDDD)

The Power of Now

2009-05-25T19:14:00.007+08:00

Had a gathering with SuetChing yesterday. It was a really quick return to Malaysia I suppose. However I was so glad to have at least met her before she made her way back to Singapore. She's doing really well in Singapore, and she's got a few nice friends over there! It's as awesome as described man. One day we'll make a trip down to Singapore and visit SuetChing. :) On the other hand, that sorta hit me in the head as to why didn't I go there. Singapore Polytechnic is well-endowed, so are the other polytechnics. Damn, I guess thats why I try not to cry over spilt beer whereas at the very same time, I'm glad. Heh, when a door closes another opens babe.

..... WHEN IS THE OFFER LETTER EVER GONNA REACH MY HOUSE?!?!?! .___.

I wanna watch Monsters vs Aliens so badly, probably its coz of the blue jelly round blob thang. I find him extremely süßßßßßßßßß. Oh, Blobby.

I have another terrible obsession with someone. This time it's reaaaaalllllyyyyyy big. God.

The High End of Low

2009-05-21T00:58:00.004+08:00

I'm listening to his new album right now. It sounds pretty good to me so far.

I've also learnt that people shouldn't really hold too much expectations towards any album actually. Cmon, look at all the drama around you, isn't that enough already? I'm so sick of seeing people bashing Manson up coz he has one of the worst voices out there. So sick of seeing people misperceiving him for his exteriorities. Damn, I'm so sick of this shit man. I agree to the fact that freedom of speech should be allowed, and things are going to get ironic after this. Freedom of speech huh, you can suck my dick if I ever do have one. If there was ever that FOS around, people wouldn't be put behind bars for it. The superiors would never have gone to the extent of belittling the inferiors. I mean, the world lives by reality not ideality.

he needs to ritired,new album is pop rock music,so crappy music

...dude what the hell that was man? Spell correctly for fuck's sake. I don't really care if Manson has evolved to become a pop-rock star or something, if that's the direction he wants to go with, it's fine with me. Don't expect so much from someone when you're not even them. Well yes, Manson's music may not be particularly brilliant in terms of its technical profficiency but overall if you really go through the lyrics you'll catch the message he wants to be sent across. Though, only a handful would do that huh? Just enjoy the music and treat it with some respect at least as a very-well written and scripted piece of art.

Remember, music can also be enjoyed if it's artistic and intriguing, if not techincally good. :)

Target Audience (Narcissus Narcosis)

am i sorry your sky went black, put your knives in babies backs?
am i sorry you killed the kennedy's and huxley too?
but i'm sorry shakespeare was your scapegoat
and your apples sticking into my throat
sorry your sunday smiles are rusty nails
and your crucifixion commercials failed
but i'm just a pitiful anonymous

and i see all the young believers, your target audience
i see all the old deceivers, we all just sing their song

am i sorry to be alive, putting my face in the beehive?
am i sorry for booth and oswald, pinks and cocaine too?
i'm sorry you never check the bag in my head for a bomb
and my halo was a needle hole, i'm sorry i saw a priest being beaten
and i made a wish, but i'm just a pitiful anonymous

and i see all the young believers, your target audience
i see all the old deceivers, we all just sing their song
we all just sing their song

"the valley of death we are free, your father's your prison you see"

and i see all the young believers, your target audience
i see all the old deceivers, we all just sing their song

you're just a copy of an imitation

Good shit.

The Depressed Kid

2009-05-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

I realized a really sad pathetic thing.

I ALWAYS FALL FOR GAYS.

Telling Yaro about Darren, Daniel and Christian. If Yaro was gay maybe I'll like him all that much. Thank god he isn't. For fuck's sake Jacy Ong!

.... stay away from me if you're gay I'll probably maybe kinda sorta somehow somewhat stalk the hell outta you. 8D

The Huge Satisfaction

2009-05-17T22:26:00.010+08:00

It was phenomenal and sensational. I can't believe it. Probably I'll just say that again when another tournament comes in rolling lol. XD

I was really looking forward to the men's doubles final between China and Korea. What can I say more bout these two countries? Cai Yun & Fu Haifeng representing China against Lee Yong Dae & Jung Jae Sung from Korea. They perform up to the very standard, in fact sometimes they've got the benchmark set higher in the badminton industry. Albeit Malaysia's doubles has lost in the semi finals, China can never be denied of this.

The whole time when I watch watching the match, if my memory serves me correctly, my blood was pumping with full shot of adrenaline. I'm more inclined to doubles actually, compared to singles. It's all about the smashes, footwork, divings, the ability to maneuvuer the shuttlecock just so right that it gives you that crucial point in every match-ups. Agility plays a very important role as well. China has the whole package, contributing to them being the overall champion for the Sudirman Cup '09. They not only retained the championship after all these years, they retained it without dropping a match at all.

Our players have certainly made us proud too, having not bagged anything home but really, mad props given to them. Lee Chong Wei, Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong, you guys are awesome!

Once again, China. China shows world dominance in world badminton. The 80 centimetres, plated with 20 karats of gold and solid silver. OWNED!

.... I want more badminton tournaments! It's so frustrating to watch yet insatiable. And I find it kinda sad that sports played by the asians are not as claimed worldwide. Soccer, tennis and golf makes badminton and ping pong look like the 'underdogs' in sports.

So screw it I'm still sticking to my badminton!

The Notable Sat.

2009-05-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

UWAH! 8D

It bleeds occasionally. It's like a minor menstrual I'm having.

I haven't gone through the book-album properly yet. I'll do it before I hit the sack tonight, with my head filled with images of Blo and MYK. Whoa thats orgasmic! The lady at the national curier office must have thought I was a nutcrack, jumping straight steps off stairs when I got the package from her lol. So screw that man. Went sushi with my mom after grabbing my item, so I guess the surroundings are rather familiar, no? The well-lit orange ambience and atmosphere.

Hit the movies right after mommy got me a brand new cap from Padini. Oh she still owes me a perfume! HAR HAR. Star Trek was alright I guess, I loved Spock. I don't fucking know why but yeah, I like him alot. Neither my taste nor sexuality you shall question or I'll just have to pimp smack you.

Rushed home for Sudirman Cup '09. Damn, what a big let down when I got to realize that I missed Lin Dan & Chong Wei's match up. FUCK! My friend was telling me how muscular Lin Dan has gotten, how his guns could dazzle someone, his sweaty hot body.. OH GOD NOT THAT BODY.. I'll stop right here or I'll just have to....... *cough* The doubles was such a gut-wrenching thing to watch seriously, especially when you've got the two best team out there battling each other's asses off. I really admire and respect both China and Malaysia. Well deserved imo, regardless of what nationality I am.

Last but not least, may my soul be mapped by Epik High tonight honey.

The Best

2009-05-16T13:41:00.001+08:00

My favourite name is Catherine Drew, but in my time of life you can't afford to be too picky. Because as i always say

COMPUTER SAYS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

AHAHAA DUDE.

Little Britain is epic.

The Sickest Super Mario Game in the Universe!

2009-05-15T21:47:00.007+08:00

...... FUCK THIS SHIT MAN! LYK DUDE SRSLY.

Yaro, you gave me hell today. Is this my punishment or something for not watching [REC] in time?! I know I have my hot badminton men on right now but still what the fuck man?! XDDD

Just so you guys know, I laughed my fucking head off for like 23 minutes. My mom was on the phone and she was poking me to shut up. <_<>

"You know, Mario, I have a lot of respect for you. Because, you know, if I were from New York and like do my fuckin’ toilet and suddenly found myself in a kingdom, where I had to rescue a dumb bitch, who always fuckin’ gets herself kidnapped - I would not have the patience for this shit.”

WHERE DID THAT COME FROM?! FUCK THAT. COMPUTER DICK. AHAHAHAHA.WHO BUILDS A CASTLE WITH NO FUCKING FLOORS?! AHH YOU FUCK WHY DO THEY DO THAT?! AHHH I SHOULD REALIZE THIS. >___>

... this is a nightmare. Fuck why weren't I smarter or something?! *laughs*

..... Okay this post may not be suitable for minors. You just can't imagine how badly I was laughing. Oh lord. XDDDD

The Uber Blunder

2009-05-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

OH LORD MY MOM CAME HOME JUST TO TELL ME THAT THE NATIONAL COURIER GUY LEFT A NOTE OUTSIDE OF MY FUCKING HOUSE!

...... ITS MAPTHESOUL OH MY GOD!!! HOW COULD I HAVE POSSIBLY MISSED IT?!

Gotta wait for tomorrow. :\

EDIT//

I really want Epik High to map our fucking souls in Malaysia.

The Great

2009-05-14T14:47:00.005+08:00

ONOEZ! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAT DARLIN'!

I just realized I'll be there in time for Manson's latest album release! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!

Atm I'm watching the Sudirman Cup. Ahhhh, badminton's such a pain in the ass sometimes. It makes me jump outta my couch! ... like wth? And dude, it's got me questioning if the female players are wearing bras or not. Either it's just me or their sports bra are..too tight? Iono. I keep seeing badminton boobies. :S

Ya' know, that night I was talking to Vanessa online again. She's finally made up her mind on where she'll be going. Funny thing is, my father is concerned for her as much as I am hahah. Well we've known each other since we both had had our mushroom heads. We both starting talking bout teh usual, whats been up and down in our lives and all that. And I was suddenly, "Heyy Van, guess where I'm at right now." And she was like, "At home?" "Duudee, I'm at Oxford's homepage right now!" "AHAHAHAH."

As ridiculous as it may seem, I was browsing through the indisputable prestigious universities you could ever find in the States and United Kingdom. I was telling Van bout how blessed it'd be if I managed to gain admission into one of these top universities, who wouldn't be man? It's such a priviledge, yet at the same time reality taps at your back saying WHOA DUDE SLOW DOWNN! I know it's not impossible to get into those, but I suppose you have to be one of those excellent all-rounder high achievers - the best among the best - being part of the family - to fly with the best, making history.

As much as I'd love to enter Massachusetts Institute of Technology, I chose not to be so ambitious for a second there. Its always good to have aspirations you see, just so you ensure yourself that you won't be plunging downhill due to that. You know, its just like how a homeless would dream of having a home filled with colors and love. How the deaf would long to hear the words of his beloved. How a persona would want to use as much metaphors to portray life as it is. How a child wished he never had to cry for the deceased family. You get what I mean?

So I guess I'll just daydream a little longer, won't hurt much right? Hell yeah. :)

... oh and check out their yearly pranks. They don't play small.

The Recap

2009-05-12T23:41:00.007+08:00

Well well, what has been happening in my life you asked? Doh, experimenting and loving my new phone to the max.

Other than that, its been good. My father was around for about 4 days. Usually its just 2 days as he has to leave for work on Monday. The leaves he took was mainly because to accompany me over to Kedah for my brand new college life if I may say that. Well things didn't turn out the way we thought. Fortunately of course. Pray that I get into the University of Nottingham.

My dad took me for car rides, to my mom's office and definitely feasting on durians. Amanda, be very jealous of me.

It was painful holding onto this durian.

When I was at my mom's office, I was literally bored to the oblivion. Dude, all I see was numbers and numbers on a huge LCD screen. Not that I hate numbers, its not that. But I was referring to stocks, sharemarkets, ya' know all that shit. And there my dad was, smiling all the way while I was frowning, fidgetting on my phone at the same time. However, i managed to catch up with my addmath tutor, Uncle Chan. He's a great guy, I love talking to him.

I could smell the senility lol.

Something I did outta utter boredom.

Numbers. #########!

My middle nail, can never ever grow back. It bleeds erraticly too.

Ah btw have I told you about my leg muscles? God they've been aching since Saturday. I can barely jog like 10 metres, how pathetic is that? I hope it'll ease soon. Life's not the same without this. I've substituted it with rope jumps tho. But whatever.

Amanda : You're a work-out freak! Stay away from me. *flees*
Jacy : Like you'll want me to get away from you. BWAHAHAH.

And Yaro texted me this morning with a frustrating news.

Yaro : I'LL SEE FUCKIN ATMOSPHERE LIVE!!!!!!
Jacy : DUUDEEE THATS WAY HOT! I wanna go. T_T

.... I'm envious and happy for him at the same time mannn. First it was Manson, then Miyavi, Scars on Broadway, Fall Out Boy, Vienna Teng, and now ATMOSPHERE?!?!!! Dude. You had better get an autograph for me or sumfink man from Cologne's gig. I love Slug so much, he makes the songs sound so friggn effortless.

Hellborn Ycaj Di: i think they'll sing Yesterday tooo..
Hellborn Ycaj Di: puppets is a must
魂 lost in transl: yep!
魂 lost in transl: you definitely
魂 lost in transl: puppets i think too
Hellborn Ycaj Di: me definitely?
Hellborn Ycaj Di: XD
魂 lost in transl: hmmm... since ant said he's proud the most of me... yeah.. probably
魂 lost in transl: haha... ant's proud of me XD....
Hellborn Ycaj Di: i think they'll play you and me
Hellborn Ycaj Di: oh how i love it when they play me
Hellborn Ycaj Di: *cough*
魂 lost in transl: XDDD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: you have no chance against me!
Hellborn Ycaj Di: though i'd prefer you
魂 lost in transl: i'd prefer...
魂 lost in transl: you'n me together!
魂 lost in transl: it'd be also totally awesome if they played little man
魂 lost in transl: it's on you cant imagine how much fun we're having
魂 lost in transl: though

MAP THE SOUL IS ON THE FUCKING WAY TO MALAYSIAA!!!! *waits by my mailbox everyday*

The New Gadget

2009-05-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls, gays and straights,

I HAZ A NEW FONS. >:D

The New Sleeping Disorder

2009-05-10T15:39:00.002+08:00

I've acquired a new sleeping disorder. It's rather unique, yet unbelievable.

I got a text from Amanda one fine morning, I was obviously in a sleepy mode. The text alert woke me up like a charm. I'll reply if I feel like it sometimes, but most of the time trust me, I won't. Spank me for being a sleepy head, I don't give a damn! HAR HAR. And I don't know what happened in between, I somehow sent an empty text to her. I clearly remember I didn't do anything.

Amanda : Someone was sleep pressing LOL.
Jacy : Wth?!

And today I got up, ready and fresh to start the day when my father asked me,

Dad : Did you go out last night?
Jacy : Huh? *rubs eye* No I didn't.
Dad : Then why is the car parked in a different way?!
Jacy : HOW I KNOW LAHHHHHH!?!?!!

Amanda : Soemone was sleep driving.
Jacy : .........

This is freaky. But naw, my dad accused me. He forgot we went out for tau fu fa last night.

*raises eyebrows*

The Brand New Day

2009-05-09T23:41:00.011+08:00

I woke up feeling kind of relaxed today, a totally different feeling than other usual days.

Today's Saturday was a really pleasant one I would say. My mother hinted to me about the day after today, and she thought I was so stupid to not know what's coming my way lol. While she was at Estee Lauder, I quickly made my way upstairs and got her Mother's Day gift. My taste is absolutely exquisite! I reckon this year was the best Mother's Day gift she could ever get in so many years, her daughter being able to secure a scholarship (though not overseas) and the lovely gifts her children had gotten for her. Wooo!

My parents were being somewhat extra nice to me today, or maybe its just me. My dad offerred to get me a new phone. LYK FINALLY OMGZ. My mom might be getting me a new perfume. LYK OMGZ SRSLY?! Hell yeah you bet. 8D

I CAN HAZ A NU HANFON SOON! I'm so excited, probably I'll be getting the T700. I don't really care whether it's the latest model or whatsoever, as long as it gives me the shit that I want, I'm cool with it. In other words, all I need on a phone is.... phoning, writing text-messages and I should be able to install tetris in it, thats all I need.

DUDE NO THATS YARO'S!!!!! Damn, minus the tetris and add the music, make it mine. :D

And ooohhh, Map The Soul baby. Finally.

Yaro's way of kissing people is just..cute. Look below.

To Chong Ren, doubt you'd read this but I'm praying hard for you. You wait and see. JPA will realize what they have done wrong. Just wait and see.

To Yennee, I'll miss you girl. Think of me okay. The one who used to sit right next to you in class. The one who used to annoy you with her singing everytime you're studying. The one whom you used to go to toilet with last time. It was me!

Note to self : Get your hair trimmed. ATMOSPHERE IS SO FUCKING GOOD. Slug, you rock. DX

To whoever who reads this : Guys, I probably won't be using my maxis number anymore. My dad is officially taking it from me. Great lol. I'll be sticking to my digi one!

0165387120

Too lazy to forward msges around srsly. >_>

The Exuberance

2009-05-09T01:12:00.006+08:00

HO' SHIT!

I got the JPA scholarship, but I wasn't offerred the overseas program. Instead I'll be doing my foundation locally. I believe that's a blessing either way, you just have to grab whatever comes your way.

It was such a tragic day. So much has happened in the past few hours, actually. All of us were distressed by the fact that the results was not only postponed, but things were such a train-wreck. We only managed to check our application status after a long delay of 4 hours. I didn't expect to be able to check it when I gained access into the eSILA site though, but as I did the nerves started to come in. Thus came this.

Jacy : MOMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs upstairs*
Mom : WHAT?!?!?!!!!!
Jacy : I think I got it!

Dad : I'm actually glad you got the local offer.

Jacy : *too busy on the comp*

Dad : I don't have many daughters you know.

Jacy : Awww.

Maaan, I was psyched you could tell. Literally screamed from downstairs lol. My dad rushed home all the way from KL, well not coz of this actually, was going to settle my matriculation stuffs. I wasn't really ready for matriculation as I have not packed yet. Rang up a couple of friends. Couple of friends rang. It was hectic.

All and all, it was a good outcome.

Good news guys, I won't be leaving so soon!

.... I could catch more of The Nanny & Patrick ahahah.

The Old School

2009-05-08T11:57:00.002+08:00

I'm totally fallin' for Backstreet Boys again. I don't know which song is my favourite, I guess I'm going with All I Have To Give.

Fuck seriously.

The Test For Nutcracks

2009-05-08T01:27:00.004+08:00

If you get more than 30, get some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are full of crap.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[x] dogs (Dogophobia, need I say more? I just saw a few today. Creeped me out shitless.)
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 5

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[x] failure
[x] success
[x] thunder/lightning IT CRASHED MY MODEM TWICE!111112!!!!
[x] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 14

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed/mugged
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[x] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 19

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] scary movies
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind I CAN'T SEE PRON!!!!1!!! XDDD
[x] becoming deaf THIS THIS THIS!!!!!!!!
[ ] growing up, old
Total so far: 25

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[ ] blood

Grand Total: 28

I can't tell if this is good or way too creepy.

DUN TALKS TO ME PEOPLE HUMANS FREAK ME OUTTTTZ! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!

The Smoking Aromatic

2009-05-07T14:06:00.013+08:00

Night well spent! Except for the fact I went home smelled like smoke and butter. I know whose fault that is. Pathetic or not, I fell in the toilet last night. Take it or leave it, never wear sneakers especially Nike, to the Two Plus One restaurant. Or you'll get it just like how I did. Fark.

It's actually hazel in color, put the blame on my phone. D:<

Apricots, how can one not find it good?

It's weird, I've been listening to Nsync and Backstreet Boys again, after all these rocking hard years. Rekindled much of my childhood memories with Vanessa somehow. She's one of the rare ones that I really open up to. Even if we don't share the closest interests in things, we definitely still click together as buddies. I remember those nights when I drove to her house and had a few chats with her. Just a couple of days ago, we managed to catch up after months. We dwelled upon our past recollections, how when you're having one of 'those days' where you just tend to relfect and ponder upon your actions, friends and family. What you've done to them that could have and might have been changed even just that bit. She now knows one of my darkest secrets, Yie Ping. Oh god hahah. I'm embarrassed.

Here's another one who gives me comfort besides Kat. She may live in Pennsylvania, but that doesn't mean really anything, does it? I'm still waiting for her to get her fucking ass back to Malaysia and bring me go partyyyy! Oh yeah, I'm so glad she's darn happy with her sweetheart right now. There was point, vaguely I recalled, we both nearly got together. Maybe it was just me or something heh.

The beautiful family I'm having right now, I've been a rebellious kid I know lol. It's just the process of growing up and realization I guess. I'll miss them heaps when I'm away from home. There's nothing I could say actually, there's just too much gone by. Will always love them.

The friends whom I call my cliche - Suetching, Yennee, Evon, Christine, Leeling and Siuyen. The times we've had had in our secondary school life together was just simply awesome. I'll never, and I really mean it yeah, forget the times we had. How we used to gather and chat the morning away near the main gallery stairs before assembly. How we didn't really pay attention in class. How we totally rocked our secondary education together. But you see, now we're going separate ways, achieving something greater, as how destiny might have led us to. Whatever it is, I'll still love you guys for you have walked into my life, left a special mark on it.

To those I loved, lest we forget. Not really.

The Sh****!!!!

2009-05-06T15:18:00.002+08:00

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure she giggles
Because I sleep with the...
[Girl] can I throw panties on stage, like can I be a fucking groupie
And just fuck you because you're on stage
And other girls want to fuck you?
[Slug] See bands like us don't get groupies
[Girl] Noooo?
[Slug] yeah
[Girl] you guys are full of shit
[Slug] No it's not full of shit I mean have you guys ever heard our songs
I mean basically?
[Girl] That's what I'm saying
[Slug] Exactly that's what I'm saying
Smile, smile with me, smile with me, smile with me, please won't you...
Oh look at her she's looking as good as dinner
And she's looking back at me as if maybe I'm a winner
I'm in my late twenties little girl don't flirt with me
I've got the capapbilities to program your circutry
You don't have to believe me do yourself a little justice
Don't let slug undercook your muffins
Wait wait wait did I just say that I did must be losing it
Because it almost felt like it might just have some truth in it
Now back to the platter at hand she said she's twenty-one
And quit school to go work for the man
A switch up in the plan now she's happy as a chorus
Cause now she makes rent and now she drives a Taurus
Unwinding hanging out at the bar,
I wonder if she knows that I'm not really a star
She seems to be impressed by lack of an ego and my self-aware style,
I like the way that she smiles
She want to know how I find the words
I do I don't really know but I can lie if you want me to
Angels sing to me in my sleep,
I sold my damaged soul for the magic of speech
And now she's laughing she likes the sarcasm
So naturally I'm asking if she 's got a captain
She says a captain what?
You mean a man at home the answer is no I came to this bar alone
Well heavens to betty enough about boyfriends already
Just trying to keep the conversation petty
Beacuse as much as I would like to play in the forest
Ain't no way this girl is going to break into my fortress
I've never made a practice of introducing the matress
To women that I meet at my own gig
I don't know can't imagine anything as alchohol and hormones
Turning out to be anything big
But babys hella beautiful and even kind of bright
I got the fire of a vampire inside me tonight
Might be alright eveything seems tight
I've got a good buzz and she's giving me the green light
So tell me girl what ya doing after
She says hopefully hanging out with my new favorite rapper
Now wait a minute that's not fair your throwing boulders
I can tell by the way your hair touches your shoulders
Be straight with me and I'll be me with you
I can think of some of us that we should do so if you think
I'm coming home with you tonight you're probably right
You're pobably right a few more beers a couple more laughs
Undressing my past with the questions she asks
Yes, I love cats and I would love to take a bath
If I spent the night would you massage my back
She's closing in for the embrace
And slightly tucks her hand under my face
Her hair smells so good I got to have a taste
Where's your ford let's ditch this place
And in the parking lot she sparked it off
She must be starving for someone to hit the harp
I've never been kissed with such passionate bliss
Porn star damn near tore my lips apart
Honey slow it up hold it up start the car
Let's leave this garage le'ts go to your apartment
Lyndale ave. on the way to the her rest
Her drunk ass turn to look at me and she says
You're so beautiful from the hair to the soles
I know, can't belive that I never met you before
Feels liike I've been waiting for you me whole life
She missed the red light we hit a pick-up truck and we both died.

.... One of my all time favourite songs from Atmosphere. (Thanks Yaro babe.)

The Ridicule

2009-05-05T11:01:00.006+08:00

Oh god hahah. Yaro makes me feel uber dumb most of the time.

魂 lost in transl: still online?
Hellborn Ycaj Di: mhmm, listening to N'sync for a bit
魂 lost in transl: ooh ok ^^
Hellborn Ycaj Di: do you listen to them when you were little? XD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: like you knoww.. bsb westlife etcetera
魂 lost in transl: no XDD
魂 lost in transl: but at least i know the name XDX
Hellborn Ycaj Di: dude!
Hellborn Ycaj Di: DX
Hellborn Ycaj Di: try typing your name with your elbow
魂 lost in transl: jacy ong pee
魂 lost in transl: isn't that hard with your name
魂 lost in transl: XD
魂 lost in transl: was it correct? ong pee?
Hellborn Ycaj Di: i said your name!
Hellborn Ycaj Di: and it wasnt jacy ong pee
Hellborn Ycaj Di: !!!!!!!!!
Hellborn Ycaj Di: ong pei yee douche! D:
魂 lost in transl: yarosl,aw
魂 lost in transl: ah... pei
魂 lost in transl: sorry XDDDD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: mnjzacx yhuo nbgvf pedio uyherer
Hellborn Ycaj Di: dudee.. i dont see my name at all
Hellborn Ycaj Di: LOL
Hellborn Ycaj Di: hahahah jacy ong pee lol
Hellborn Ycaj Di: i'll remember that forever XD
Hellborn Ycaj Di: jaC TY OLnb gfv poer8 yu7edew
Hellborn Ycaj Di: i cant do it XD
魂 lost in transl: XDDD!

//

This is yet another hands down win.

"VEGETARIAN PROGRESSIVE GRINDCORE." AHAHAHAHAH LOLOLOL. *thumbs up*

"Not everyone likes metal.... FUCK THEM!"

"Any head will do!"

"LOUDER PUSSY!"

Oh dear... XDDDDDD

//

Have you met my imaginary friend, Charlie?

I watch it everyday, pathetic or not.

The You-Creep-Me-Out Thang

2009-05-04T20:14:00.006+08:00

Ahha, don't worry guys I won't bombard you with anymore Donnie Darko theory madness three consecutive times in a row. :D

The last three days in the previous week was rather hectic and tight. My father and brother came back. He brought his girlfriend home as well, she's such a lovely girl awww. .... I hope my brother won't read this but is it me or his girlfriends has always been kinda petite? Ya' know, short.. small.. tiny.. Or maybe we're just born tall. *coughpuiseecough*

I have never tried on so many baju kurungs in my lifetime oh dear. The Guiness World Record crew should be notified about a kid named Jacy Ong man. Lyk srsly, I can so totally worm my way into the book. Alright, I was being sarcastic but hey what the heck it was so true! I got so sick of stripping and unstripping literally it washed my zest away. From this shop to that store, I was infuriated. But yeah whatever, at the end of the day I got myself 4 pair of them. I can't wait to get it over with.

My dad got me a new Nike sling bag on a lighter note. Finally I have a decent one to use, au revoir ciplak sling bags from Parade. Thanks for carrying my crapload of books, you were a great bag. But still, I had to tolerate your inefficiency. I'm sick of you and I'm done with you. 8D

//

My parents told me off again for crashing and thrashing the car. No thanks to the new parking system thing in JJ. I still need to brush up on my reversing skills a little. As I ran the tyres over the divider!

Family : BE CAREFUL!!!!! WE CAN'T BELIEVE YOU PASSED YOUR DRIVING TEST!
Dad : Your driving is so si (shitty).
Jacy : Whaaaat. >_>

Do not judge my driving skills, I may get defensive about it. XDDD

Went to the movies with Amanda the day after. Thanks to that asshole I'm practically bringing my Nie everywhere right now. Yeah, that includes on that day itself as we were both squishing and cuddling Nie in the movies. It felt like home man, extending your legs over to the seats in front of you like no one gives a shit about it. Got to watch 2 movies, wanted to catch Coming Soon or something but the timelines were so screwed up. That left us with nothing but Xmen and Mall Cop. Hugh Jackman is a beast. 'Nuff said. I'd pay big money to see him spring outta the water again. And we both had the creep-me-and-you-out moments like whoa. You know what I'm talking bout and damn right I'm still stoned creeped. Other than that, it was fabulous. Pssht, we have yet to visit the tattoo parlor. Movie marathons. Good stuff.

I keep forgetting things lately. This can't be good dude. Am I experiencing dementia at 17?!!!?! Tough luck Jacy. Tough luck.

Obsessive jogging disorder much?

Isn't she cute?

Hahah, he's so adorable. I can't believe the baby's a girl.

.... I guess this week would be spent by meeting up with my friends and all. I still don't feel like leaving though. Suddenly it's all too fast. For a second I was ushering the brand new 2009. For another second March 12th. And right now, it's back to square one.

Note to self : You have one week left.

The Labyrinth

2009-05-01T23:22:00.004+08:00

I didn't exactly get the movie completely. Right now, my brain is having a uber meltdown due to myself trying to absorb all possiblities and fictions that were discussed among the Donnie Darko fans. To think that I actually comprehended the whole fucking movie huh. Fuck. Dude this is not the basic cheapass comprehension exercises your English teacher gives!

I stand corrected man.

Here are my 2 cents worth of the movie :

Donnie has some sort of supernatural power in him. To be precise, he could see into the future as the wormholes i.e portals to the future, were only visible in his eyes. At the present days, he's taking his medication as he is diagnosed with what we would commonly call daylight hallucination. Hence the imaginary friend, giant bunny rabbit named Frank. Donnie was sorta called out by some mysterious force ( who's actually Frank ), and thus not killed by the jet engine which was, technically speaking if it weren't for Frank, Donnie would have died right in the beginning of the movie.

Pretty much the conception is that Frank saved Donnie's fucking life. Donnie cheated death. Whatever you may want to call it. I don't really get it. Since he's able to see into the future, why is he still doing it continuously? To a certain extent that he actually turned back time and chose to lay on his bed whole night just to wait for the jet engine to crash on him.

OH LORD NO. This is such a mindfuck to deal with, yet I can't get enough of it.

Somehow these are all chain of events, the survival of Donnie himself made him feel so obliged to Frank that he had to listen to whatever he asked him to. Note this, Frank said the world was going to end in 28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes and 12 seconds. What the hell was that supposed to mean? Yaro & I speculated it in such a way that when Gretchen died ( someone whom Donnie loves and cares for ), it was the end of the world for him. Thus the falling into the time portal with the jet engine. Death was waiting for him. He chose to sacrifice as he didn't want to be alone when the world ends.

DUDE WHAT THE FUCK? I DON'T GET IT. THE MORE I READ IT THE MORE FRUSTRATED I GET WITH THIS MOVIE. And I noticed I don't really know to to describe about the movie..

.... that was just my thoughts about the movie. I was very wrong. Very very wrong I guess. Somehow this has connections to how far we're willing to push our minds into the borders of scientific truth. The evidence of time travel. Stephen Hawking. Roberta Sparrow. Paradox. It's a rigorous science. And I'm fucked.

I'm depressed. I wanna die lol.

SAFKASHFASLKFJASLFJASLJ120481204832104812-4124!@$@#%^#$^@$%!

Donnie: Why are you wearing that stupid bunny suit?

Frank: Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

... that my dear, is a labyrinth.

The Recognition of That One

2009-04-30T16:36:00.008+08:00

GOD. Donnie Darko just keeps getting better everytime I watch it honestly. What would you do if you could see the portals to the future? Even if you were to be alive the next day, but to realize that you're alone in the end of everything, what would you do? Well, Donnie chose to leave it all. This movie is such an inspiration. After probably the fourth watch of it, I've finally understood the whole movie.

And need I mention that the soundtrack is just so beautiful? Except for some unappealing classic songs like Duran Duran? Hahah, sorry babe I'm so not into those songs. But yet really, some are really worth listening to as it gives you the chills. Carpathian Ridge somehow gave me the intimidation when I first watched the movie at night. Talk about rolling the film with that particular music, Donnie laying by the road with his bicycle on the other side of it. Good god, it's made of awesome & intrigue. I have watched many movies in my life, this has to be one of the best apart from the SAW series.

Maaaan, I still get the creeps seeing Frank, the giant bunny rabbit. ASDFG!?!?!!! Never liked bunnies in my entire life lol.

Oooooohhhh, Manipulated Living scares me shit outta my anus lol. Illiterally of course doh!

//

Recently I've been on to so many good shows. Family Guy comes in second after Donnie Darko. It is just another show that is filled with black humour, similar to The Simpsons but considering I never get The Simpsons, Family Guy automatically became my favourite. I fell in love with Stewie instantly omg. He's fulled of diabolical plans and such sophistication in his attitude. That came all from the one year old baby boy. He is extremely cute. \o/

Lunch one fine day.

Eye scream!!!@11!@! <3

The hole on Nie's nose. T____________T

See the hole? T________T

I wanted to write Epik High, but iono why Epik Hair came out instead. >_>

Squirt's scribbles.

I've finally found one person who actually takes liking to Nie lol. YAY! I was back in school helping Amanda with her Physics this time. It was much better than when I was teaching her Chemistry as both of us dread that particular subject. So yeah, Physics worked this time. Owing to the fact that I'm a Physics lover, all things go! IM SUCH AN AWESOME TEACH! XD Throughout the whole evening, she was holding onto Nie all the time! To my surprise actually. I guess he isn't as stinky as he could have been, probably he looked uber dirty but still who cares?! Nie is loved! MWAHAHAHAH. Pwnage.

//

OH GOOD GODAMMNIT. ONE MORE FUCKING WEEK TO GO. And I'm so proud to say I have not bought anything yet for college lol. Good lord Jacy Ong! I just got a call from Kah Men, I realized I haven't seen her in more or less 5 fucking months! I miss her so much. I'm glad she'll be willing to come down to Kedah to visit me. Man, I hope we won't reach half a year coz seriously, that's just absurd.

I've been looking at my virtual calendar these days, counting down I guess. It was 3 rows before this. Now it has come to only one miserable row, signifying one miserable week. Psssht. I hope to get everything prepared for by the next week.

And I guess I made a huge mistake and could never turn back, knowing me.

*tunes in to Donnie Darko soundtrack*

Ahha, bitches.

The Random 101

2009-04-26T19:31:00.007+08:00

Now that's one grumpy baby.

Whoa dude, There's so much I wanted to say, but it just ain't right here.

BUT WHAT THE HELL. MYK WAS BORN ON THE 13TH SPETEMBER 19**!!!!!!!! Holy shit. I'm ecstatic. If only he knew. LOL. Jacy fangirling is a bad bad thing, and can be annoying at times. I run outta breathe everytime I try Map The Soul (Worldwide Version). Guess I'll practice more. Nevertheless I think that this version of Map The Soul is way much better. Its full of honesty and rawness. Love it love it.

ANDDDDDDDDDDD. I SAW MAP THE SOUL PROMOTIONAL VIDEO ON TV O MAI GOD?!?!? HOMGWTFBBQ. I was left literally screaming when I first saw the Tablo's mouth in the little television. Frantically I rushed towards my computer as I HAD to tell Yaro babe about it. And right now Yaro is my version of Pemale Anderson and he offered me his merchandise! HUGE PLASTIC SILICON BOOBIES. And you know what, while I was rubbing them, they were leaking their juices off. So much for the 10k silicon tits huh. .... dude. XDDD

Its final, I'm high again.

//

It's been so many years since my family and I actually went for icecream together. I guess there just wasn't time for it, as my father is busy working in KL right now whereas my brother is currently pursuing his studies in Taylor's. Things just ain't the same as before anymore. Haven't been talking much to my brother since few years back. And yet, when I was bleeding myself away due to the fall, he was the one who took care for me. Mann, I feel like such a jerk sometimes and I can't stop being one somehow. Once it's in you, there's so much to take to change oneself and go back to oneself. Whatever that meant to you guys, but I know what it meant exactly as the understanding of oneself is uniquely mine.

Recently we had the chance of reignition. We went to the icecream bar we used to go a decade back. And you won't be able to imagine the nostalgia surrounding the area that time, it's just the feeling of yearning and longing and reminiscence that makes you wonder, if things could go back to the way they were - when my brother and I were still wrestling against each other, I clearly remembered he rock-bottomed me right on the ground before hahah. And how I used to always watch his back while he games Final Fantasy, Chrono Cross & Xenogears upstairs. I did only the watching as I didn't know how to play such games at all, afraid of losing to those villians and die after. >_> Not that I didn't die in those games before lol. <_<

Speaking about icecream, gratitudos to Amanda for the green tea icecream. Totally enjoyed seeing her creep me out everytime as she just never fail to read my mind. Which is creepy. And yeah, creepy much lol. I doubt I helped her that much with Chemistry as I haven't touched that particular subject in months. But I had fun after all. Nah, see your name?!?! BE HAPPY SQUIRT.

The following day I finally had the chance to meet up with my girls. Haven't really seen them in ages, especially Leeling babi. The 7 of us were screaming our asses off to Coming Soon in the theaters once again lol. I would not recommend the show for you guys out there, as it's a weird play. Iono man, odd feedbacks. We had our lunch at Kenny Roger's, and practically spent the day away talking and talking and talking. Not to mention my stomach was hating my guts like alot. I dunno whats wrong with it man. Fuck. And the day couldn't get anymore better when we went bowling. My precious fingernail chipped off!!!!1!!1one!1eleven1!!!!!! Now I have to grow it all over again. Joykiller much?

My hall of fame.

The Voice that Never Fails

2009-04-24T00:06:00.001+08:00

... to make me cry in the worst way possible lol. Perhaps there are more vocalists as great as him, but I'm standing my ground for SATSUKI. The month of May is just full of new surprises, isn't it? Manson's new album, SATSUKI's solo project, and of course my departure!

I haven't really talked much bout me going for matrics eh. Yennee and I was just talking bout how surreal things are right now for us. We are actually leaving for college. I still remember how was it like to be a form1, and as time grows we became form5s, and how fucking proud we were coz we were. Suet Ching is way down south, I'll be heading way up north, while Joey & Yennee would be far right. Where would these new directions take us to? That, I'm curious.

Damnit, Shinwa is killing me. Fuck, srsly listen to RENTRER EN SOI! XD

No longer confined in a cage, we're just the ugly birds in a beautiful cage don't you think? The exterior may dazzle, but the interior could have been scarred. Have you ever had this gut feeling in your stomach? Wishing that the cogwheels would have turned back for you? I know I certainly did. Sze Wei told me that absence is actually a good thing. Sooner or later, the new replaces and recycles the old away. Yet, its like a slap to the face. Realization and learning were never easy indefinitely.

It's gonna be rollercoaster ride of emotions. There's just so much I would miss. My family and home, my friends and everyone who once walked into my life, having made a distinctive difference in it. Aw, I love you guys. Who knows I might come back one day, changed and no longer tied down by the society. To be honest, I'm kind of excited. 8D

WORLD DOMINATION FTW! Stewie finally got to me. >_>

Ah, I have a feeling I have turned into a different person now. I seem indifferent to people around me. Ignorant oblivious whatever that floats your boat lol. Have I really? :l

The New Shit

2009-04-22T18:59:00.007+08:00

Holy shit! Manson's new album will be out end of May! I can't wait for hear his new stuff.

But then again, I have just warmed up to Eat Me, Drink Me which was probably released on 2007 lol. He took a different approach to that album, and surprisingly, I think its working for me. I thought I would never ever hear of him again since his Lest We Forget album. It was a brilliant compilation of his best work since 10 years ago. He's best known as the artist who goes door to door shocking people. He took a break awhile there, apparently he was searching for himself. He even said he would probably never make music ever again, considering the music industry these days is just well, full of shit.

However so, Eat Me, Drink Me is by far the closest Manson will ever get to be unplugged. I guess it's still alot of pretty darkness in his music. He's added new vocabulary to the industry for sure. For himself at least, this new approach - softer and matter-of-fact without the huge, screamy choruses - would make you forget what you knew about this guy and it'll come off like a decent and perhaps rather overwhelming record. People who has never seen this side of him should really try this album out. It's a really raw album, I would say.

Better yet folks, he is finally back and kicking ass with his brand new album titled The High End of Low in stores on 26th May 2009. Damn, I just can't wait. The tracklist is also out, and may I say that it looks just as good as before.

DAMNIT MANSON! Will you ever come to Malaysia to perform!? ..... like our government would allow. Asses.

And too, I think he is so hot. Beauty definitely knows no gender. He redefined the word beauty and took it up to a whole new level.

Hahahahah. I'll never look at anus the same way again. 8DDD

The Random One

2009-04-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

Mhhhmmmmm. My friend and I were talking bout the stuffs we'd do just to kill some time for our lusts. Seriously I'd love to have Manson banging me, and she would love to have it from Miyavi. These two men are just lust, like whoa. I'm shocked myself of why I'd choose Manson. But I reckon he's good in bed. MWAHAHAHHA. It'll be so fuckintastic if we had a foursome oh my god. XDDDD I want Manson so badly its not healthy aw. :(

//

This goes out to some asshole! Was hinting to me for a dedication. So eat this sucker! You're the maggot in my arsehole. >:D

So yeah.
Mhhmmm.
You love me. Riiiiiiigghht.
I'll be seeing you soon.
And prolly give you big tight slap.
Oh! Don't forget the ice cream!
You still haven't answered my question btw. Neither have i.Guess we're even huh. XD

The Almost Goodbye

2009-04-19T15:05:00.007+08:00

It's official I think. I'll be leaving for Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah on May 11th. I can't say that I'm looking forward to it, praying hard for my JPA nonetheless. All of states, why Kedah?!?! I'm sure I'll be feasting on rice every single day what the hell. XDDD

It's about time to bid goodbye! Who ever said everything was forever.

i remember my first glimpse of her face
i saw you smile, then i smile
i was straight blown away
mesmerized by your beauty from your feet to your hands
how could one be so beautiful i don't understand
heaven sent, god's gift without a doubt in my mind
sometimes i wonder why our paths decided to collide
we started off as perfect strangers
boy meets girl, infatuation to love
now you're my whole entire world
destiny taps me on the back -- saying hello
but really it was your touch
no and i'll never let you go
then you spoke i never heard a voice so sweet
heavenly
and from her words man i knew this girl was deep
just like me
with times to worry and times to play
we'll sit and stress over life or just burn the day away

i know for sho' in our past life
we had to be friends livin and dyin together
knowin that we would meet again
it's just a blessin to have you in my life
i was destined, to be with you
my privilege so amazing no question
and i'm knowin, soon enough we'll get where we're goin
just thinkin about it i can feel my heart growing
am i trippin? or is it that i finally see?
i don't know, but my heart is saying that you're the one for me
please believe me, i'm exactly where i wanna be
this rhyme is written from my heart to you
sincerely

you turn a cocooned soul into a butterfly
and i, lose control, can never turn aside
you shine like summer skies, like when a lover lies next to me and says to me
you make me wonder why
you are a beautiful mystery
every note carved into musical history
a simile, a metaphor, words not enough to
entrust to you,
trust that its true
we must have approved while we asked for evidence
dwell on past and sentiments, but we bask in eminence
every moment every day, busy getting paid away, the soul fades away into a grainy shade of grey
i pray, that you'll listen to what i say,
cause i feel like a missing shoe
this is to everything that you are,
the wild earth, a child's birth, sun moon and the stars

check it out
so i ask what would i be without you?
like stevie without wonder
hunger without food
a sheep without a shepherd
a sleep without your message
that despite the skeptics that i knew were true
and i knew, that there was more to life
and i grew, livin for the light
i took my answers, combined them with yours
it made life exciting but it closed some doors
with the crisis my life accelerated and deflated
sunk to the bottom, then elevated till i faded
but you always had my back though
when kids threw rocks at me, i'm on stage rappin -- still
i see kids without love it brings tears to my soul
but why they always dry up
the world's gone bonkers
ya conquered fear
and as long as i believe
you're the reason i'm here

no reason to live, without you

L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you

It's definitely a song about what matters most to us. Some may have found what they're looking for in life, whilst some are just lost, don't know where to go, in need for a greater purpose.

So how about you? Have you found it?

I'll definitely bring him along with me. I can't live without Nie.

The Worn

2009-04-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I wanted to write but my English has gone from bad to worse. Hence this short lame post. Lameeeeeeeeee. Everything's lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I wear long sleeved shirts under short sleeved shirts under long sleeved shirts fucker!

Today was spectacular, however.

Mesmerized by your beauty from your feet to your hands, how can one be so beautiful I don't understand~

The Distort

2009-04-15T14:54:00.008+08:00

Either that I'm lazy or something I dunno man.

I have to admit that I've been drugging myself pretty much alot these few days. Not only does it make me feel better but it has become a need in my life to do drugs. Some may be shocked wondering what the heck am I saying. Well yeah I'm on drugs at home. Nobody knows it, my parents my friends my whatever. Think about something that you need everyday as a stimulant for yourself. I think thats pretty much self-explainatory. That is exactly what most people have it as a concept of drugs. When flamed of taking too much drugs, automatically you're the bad guy. What the hell? Drugs should not be confined to just the normal shit ecstacy pills you take to whip or fuck some asses in some hotel rooms.

Drugs are good for us, it's infuriating to see how people have this wronged assumption of it. When your kid is found injecting her/his body with a slightly overdose of something fishy, there comes the shitty blames and crap. There also, comes the urge to blame the music that you're listening to. Just exactly like what happened in Columbine, I listen to metal and you don't see me going out slashing people with a chainsaw. All these are just like an express way ticket to lure yourself outta the whole mess. And the media is just the perfect example of it. Seriously, music does not make you do things. It makes you think and believe. Whatever happens next is what you've made yourself to do it.

So, what is a drug again?

EDIT//

Naw, I'm not on cracks cocaine pinks or whatever. It's just the things I need. I will never do that, maybe.

A rather controversial thing I'd like to point out. Is tearing up the pages or a bible morally corrupted? Is stepping on your country's flag, or wiping it off your ass, against the law?

I don't think so. The point to be made is only valid to what you make your heart to believe and you've been told that you have to believe. A piece of paper or cloth doesn't really mean anything. That's the bottomline, and yet people are making such a huge fuss outta it. People are often afraid of things that they do not understand. There are people who thinks that I'm a walking contradiction. There are people who thinks that I'm much better than that. Really, thats what matters.

This may be provoking read, but I am glad I was never a Christian. The bible is a good book, not that I've read it before or even bothered reading it, but every religion preaches the exact same thing. The way that people misuse the bible is just fucking horrible. I'm sorry that Jesus was a scapegoat. Look around you, how Christian can one get? Sure thing, in church they worship and cry, what happens when they're out of the building? I see all the young believers and old deceivers going extreme, protesting beyond what they were actually supposed to do. Isn't that just ironic? In Malaysia you rarely see these happen, coz you know the shit going on in our country. But lets look at America.

EDIT//

People claim that Christianity conveys the standard norma that one should at least follow. Fair enough, but what do you think about the fairly nude guy hanging upon the cross? Doesn't that somehow promote sexuality? Crucifixed and the blood showed the sense of violence. Have you ever thought about that? Sometimes its amazing how people could see and derive things.

//

Totally unrelated. My friends and I went back to school for IU Day. My father finally let me have it my own way, when I was allowed to finally drive on my own yay! Anyways, it was mediocre, things could only go that far as far as I'm concerned. The committee did their best, credits for that though. Li Tng was sorta worried when there were technical errors during the show. It was obvious. I reassured her that things are going to just go by smoothly as she kept asking me if the event was alright. Talk about being on top and doing such things lol.

Watched Fast and Furious yesterday with friends. The subtitles had at me WTF?!?! Pantas dan Garang. LOL. How lame can it get man? Shame on you.

I am somehow attracted to Manson, alot. There is just something about this man, that is worth my time. Hear me when I say this, Manson might be shy and quiet but when he opens his mouth, pearls and diamonds would fall outta it. You'll be surprised how articulately astute he is. Period.

Btw, Donnie Darko is such a great movie. A must watch. It's a very confusing and dark movie, but it is really worth the watch. Thanks to Yaro and MYK, I had all my senses to the movie. If I were able to see my future, what would I be doing right now? It would be really nice if I could wake up and remember what I dreamt of.

The Brian of all the Brians.

2009-04-09T21:03:00.006+08:00

Brian Hugh Warner, notoriously known as Marilyn Manson

No, my title wasn't due to a typo at all. You'll see why I chose my title like that.

He is probably one of the smartest creature I've ever seen in my life. I still remember clearly who introduced me to his music, it was Doug, when I was in form 1 or 2. We haven't been in touch for years omg, he was the typical kind of guy who was well, depressed and shit. On drugs maybe. I didn't really care about that anyway.

Marilyn Manson. It's so fucking sad everyone misjudge him just coz of his shaved eyebrows, thick red lips, those black dark eyes, and lastly his rather satanic black metal music. Man honestly, I was freaked when I saw him. Can't be blamed eh, for I was just a young weed back then. Manson is just a very well spoken and intelligent person, he certainly does not look like it, but if you see his interviews, it shows without doubt. This man, he contradicts to our beliefs and popular public images. I can't believe he was the one blamed whenever any violence happened.

"This is probably the sickest group ever promoted by a mainstream record company." quoting some senator.

Apparently on April 20, 1999, ( Don't think I dunno what you people are thinking, its not current! ) two Columbine High School students walked into their school, shot and killed 13 people, injured many, before turning the guns on themselves. That horrible massacre shocked the country, eventually leading to many assumptions and accusations. And well, in the end, fingers all pointed to the skinny tall man whose face was always caked in white paint, dressed in goth garbage. Yes, Manson was the one to blame. .... or so you people thought?

"I can definitely see why the'd pick me, because I think its easy to throw my face on the television because I am, in the end, the poster board for fear. Because I represent what everyone is afraid of, bacause I do and say what I want. The two by-products of that tragedy were violence and entertainment and gun control. And how perfect coz that was the two things we are gonna talk about in our upcoming election. Well then we forgot about money influence(?) and we forgot about our president who was shooting bombs overseas. Yet, I'm the bad guy because I sing some rock 'n' roll songs. Who's the bigger influence? The president of the United States, or Marilyn Manson? I'd like to think me, but I'd go with the president."

Now wasn't it slightly different than what we'd usually think?

Here's moar!

"There's floods. There's AIDS. There's murder. Cut the comercials.Buy the Colgate, if you have bad breath they're not gonna talk to you. If you have pimples, the girls are not gonna fuck you. And its just a campaign of fear and consumption."

Interviewer : If there was anything you'd like to say to the kids in Columbine and the people of the community, what would you say to them if they were right here right now?

Manson : I wouldn't say a single word to them. I would listen to what they had to say, and thats what no one did.

See what I mean right now?

The Lost Sheep

2009-04-08T18:59:00.007+08:00

.... is still alive!

Yes people, I am still alive don't worry. I know I haven't been updating in awhile, I hope the commitment to my site is still ongoing strong. Damn you guys for all the patience! HUR HUR.

To kick things off, I'll start with my JPA interview which was like last Friday. I have to say, I was proud of myself in both appearance and performance wise. Just tell me if you are able to picture Jacy Ong in a traditional classic baju kurung, heels and my trustworthy hair-band! 8D Definitely not my style, but its JPA interview I'm going for man. Whatever it takes to please the interviewers as one of the 8000 interviewees in Malaysia.

It was all done according to procedures and all. I saw some familar faces, made some new friends. But I guess the friendship died right after the interview, coz we headed home right after. My group of 5, nevertheless, had an indian guy from Parit Buntar(?), two chinese guys from Sam Tet and one girl from PGS. A few of them were quite shy and quiet, so I had to break the ice and to ease the nerves that was around the room man. The interviewers were really professional, they knew when and what and how to headshot us while we were talking. Not that it was bad, they have been in their own respective fields for so long, more than us at least, so yeah I respect them.

..... one of them was good-looking. He's a lecturer of mechanical engineering in some university. My area my areaaa! DAMN. XD

Overall I think I did well. I volunteered most of the time to give my opinions and thoughtful thoughts maybe lol. It doesn't really matter if you don't make sense in an interview, you just really need the confidence and zest throughout the whole process. That is what they are looking for. Not solely on your ability to churn all the statistics and information in. Its the people networking we are emphasizing in every interviews. I am pretty darned sure Malaysia wouldn't want to send ineloquent and passive students overseas. But then again, there are alot of factors to be considered. It's in the JPA's hands to decide.

Look at teh freakin shoulder pads! <_<

Ah, Suet Ching left for Singapore Sunday night. I hope she's doing fine now, adapting to new environment surely ain't an easy thing to do, but she can pull it off. We had a farewell party for here in KBox. 'Nuff said. Yennee and I got to see her before she departed. The moment both of us saw her, tears were all in our eyes. It was just so hard to say goodbye and take care in Singapore lol. Everytime I wanted to say that, I had to pause as tears were welling up in my eyes. See what you have done to me, Suet Ching?! Take care in Singapore, too bad I couldn't come with you coz I opted for JPA. =\

I've accepted the offer from the University of Nottingham under the Faculty of Engineering for Foundation in Engineering. If things don't work out for my overseas programme, I hope both JPA and Nottingham would be in liaison after I've applied for the local one. :)

Decomposing at home nowadays. My injuries aren't exactly a hundred percent healed, when will it farking recover?!?!? ._. Oh oh oh! Did I tell you bout MYK? He's just drop dead charming, especially when he starts rapping oh my god. !#@$@#%$!$~$ I've been guitaring alot these days, I am not satisfied with my guitar strings, it rusted after like a few days! My previous ones were so reliable. Don't ever get your guitar strings fixed at Music Store. >_>

Been over The All-American Rejects, no matter how many times I listen to them, they're still just as good. Did guitar covers of Gives You Hell, Another Heart Calls, Move Along, Straitjacket Feeling and so many more of their awesome songs man. Good stuff good stuff. Oh, Tyson. Shinyi you can't pijak him or I'll pijak your Kisaki. =D

I'll be going for Wang Lee Hom's concert on May 2nd. WTF? I don't even know that guy and his songs. @@

To those people out there who thinks that they could actually DOWNLOAD tshirts, here's some cheap ass teesharts, please go to http://www.shirtdownloadblog.com/shirts/more_shirts/craploadofshirts/fuck_off/no_shirts/just_kidding/here_are_the_shirts/epikhaiii-shirt.shrt

Dude, I mean downloading music is acceptable. But downloading tshirts?! You are stupid.

Let music seize the day honey.

The Semi-Hiatus

2009-04-04T21:36:00.003+08:00

Well, its only a semi-hiatus. I'll promise a convincing update after I get my pictures! :)

YcajGno Maggot + MapTheSoul = AWESOMENESS.

Well, I'm still waiting till my father agrees on it.

The Between In-Torn

2009-03-30T15:13:00.005+08:00

Things just have to come into my face one after another. So here's the thing. I got the offer from Singapore earlier today. Basically for all you know, I can already start packing my suitcases and get my ass ready to leave for Singapore soon. There's JPA, however. I myself know very well I cannot let go of that opportunity. I had my eyes set on since I got my SPM results, despite the fact Singapore was another alternative as well. So right now, I'm torn in between. I have to discuss this with my parents, I know they'll ask me to focus on my JPA scholarship. On the contrary, the chances are comparable to a thread of linen. What if I fail to get it? By that time I have already watched my tertiary education spent in Singapore Polytechnic, slip away.

So? What will I decide on after? We shall see. It's time for serious business.

EDIT//

How much longer am I gonna take lah. I fucking fell down on the road again when I'm jogging. This is not the first time geez. My knees and elbows are bleeding profusely. It hurts so much. I was groaning my way home, washing away the wounds. I dunno what to do with thet fucking wounds lah. Much to take today.

Epik High is helping me cope along somehow. Hoon. My soul. Fuck yeah. I'll cough out the blood and spit it out. I will never die. You'll see.

The Perfect Trio

2009-03-29T18:16:00.008+08:00

The three of us makes the perfect trio sometimes. It was also another abrupt plan made after midnight. Well thank god this time Pn. Loh was in school! Had there been another absence of her, I'd kill myself for going back to school again and again for nothing. Lol, I got char-grilled by my dad for buying a pomelo worth less than 11 bucks. I feel so cheated for my money. Cuss you pomelo-selling-old-lady! ._.

Omg so cute right. She kept looking at me. XD Trust it or not, its entirely up to you.

The exceptional case. Was trying my best to smile but it faded off. I didn't know my dad was that tall. >_>

MAP THE SOUL! D:

The Value of Epik

2009-03-28T20:06:00.004+08:00

... they've done it again. I'm so fucking proud of them.

Fans are all rooting for them from all around the globe, there's nothing more important than being there for them honestly. They've had sleepless nights, certainly proved to us that the fans are always at number 1. Unlike other greedy bastards out there, surprisingly this is the first ever album I'm gonna purchase online no matter what. I've been pestering my father for Map The Soul, regardless of how much money I have to chip in for Epik High. The anticipation alone is killing me. Map The Soul sounded so wonderful.

However, I'm sure all of us are no strangers to pirating music at this very second. I practically do it everyday, it has become a part of my life when I'm thirsty for brand new good music. I need it instantly. Theoritically like cup noodles huh. If only my parents wouldn't worry too much that I'd get cheated on the internet for all these online purchases. If only I had more money to spend on the brilliant music I love right now. If only man. Back then when I was younger, I never thought of the painstaking effort needed for each artist to produce and even distribute their music all around the world to cater to the fans. Seriously, I've never been that thoughtful.

But you see, I've matured. I've always been in the process. Sometimes its the spur of the moment when I realize. Unfortunately, I sheepishly crawled back to my usual music pirating skit. To be honest, its not something I am proud of. Especially if you're really supporting the artist. For those out there who didnt know, Epik High ejected themselves out of Woolim Entertainment. Well, that simply means, all the work has to be done by themselves. Promoting their own music, distributing the music to us single handed, taking it all DIRECTLY to the fans without middle person but themselves. They're taking independence to a whole new level.

I was just awed, I didnt expect Epik High to take such risky step. But as a fan, I'll support them all way long. They are now free to create artistic and sharp music without any restriction or whatsofuckingever. After all, them getting banned for their music is no longer anything surprising. One of the reasons why I love them. The ugly truth NEEDS to get out to the people. Ah, it breaks my heart to see them work this hard for us. They hand-folded 1500 t-shirts and packaged them on their own. With their own bare hands. They have not slept for days. I dunno why I'm tearing up for them right now. They are just such role models for us especially. Never ever giving up till the last minute. Things have been rough for them. We crashed their server. Getting the international orders to run smoothly has been a bugger. Ah, I'd hang myself if I were put in their shoes. .___.

Alright, screw the fucking bitches who are causing a major stir right now. I'm agreeing with Sasa, its scaring away fans. Lets be realistic here, where would you get to know Epik High if it wasn't for the uploads on the net? Its not like you're gonna go in a music store and just grab their CD right. Thats just plain absurd. At the end of the day, it depends on you. Whether do you want to give them your support or not. After downloading like their whole discography, considering these circumstances for them, I'm finally gonna get this book album.

Everything will all fall back to the mighty internet I guess.

.... Sampling music before buying it is a wise thing to do.

The Pileload of Work

2009-03-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

This is so not called for. Well I never expected it to be this stressful. Here's the load-on, I'll be going for my JPA interview in a week or so. This is one of the most crucial interviews you'd ever get and go for in your life, so I guess you can picture what my friends and I are going through right now maybe. It's not as stressful as I've said it was actually, dude if you're well prepared and all that crap, it's the very best you're giving them. I'm still working on it, have never done any researches or whatsoever since my SPM. The gears in my head are probably screeching as they try to work for me. Cmon baby.

Blasting my headphones with Epik High's shizz music. Motivation and inspiration are provided for, whenever I'm listening to them. I love Epik High man. Live and die for this fucking dream. I may be a hypocrite sometimes, but hey all of us are hypocrites for at least once in your life man. Its human nature, no? =)

Hahah, before our interview with the JPA officers we're to take an online test. Just the number of questions will leave you stammering LOL. Check this out, 245 questions in 60 minutes ; 282 questions in 75 minutes. This might be worse than my SPM man! Well apparently you just have to answer either yes or no. Oh well. But still, the two-figures is certainly intimidating enough.

Errr, thats all I guess. I forgot what I wanted to write. Ah yes! On a lighter note, today was heaps of fun with my friends again. Made yet another fruitless trip back to school, after realizing the principal isnt in. Oh well, had a good chat with my class teacher, Puan Habibah. We absolutely love her. Here comes the uber fun part. We were being barbarians in the cinema. Like seriously, we were the only crazy group of kids laughing and screaming 24/7 as soon as the movie started rolling. I pitied those couples ya know~~ Do it at home. XD

The Musheroomie.

2009-03-26T02:36:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to you Mushroom.

Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
HAPPPOSAIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
happosai!!
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
nyahahahahaha, the perverted oldman
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
cute too~
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
aw.. musu is cute weh
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
omg we always end up talking bout anime
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
his specs lagi cute <333
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
i knowww.. :(
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
he loves shampooo
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
lolz...i dunno what are we talking most of the time, i'll be laughing like hell
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
funny meh
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - I worship you. XDDD says:
LOL

(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
no...i'll become a 'laughing biscuit' of ur friends -_-"
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
what laughing biscuit
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
OHHH SIEW PENG
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
for what
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
lol
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
SPAM ME MORE PICSSSSSSSS
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
X3
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
cos u'll quote it in ya blog..ur blog so many ppl visit wei..malulah saya nanti ;p
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
wont wan lahhh XD
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
....heheheheh
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
they dunno who you are also
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
hahaha

(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
YES.PINK.
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
yepp
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
i love mesmerize and toxicity albumss
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
I.COME to enrol in TARC in pink hair last year -_-
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
steal this album is good too
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
.........
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
WHY THEY LET YOU MASUK!?!!?
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
ahahaha, u shud see the cover art for Steal this album <3
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
saw it
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
XD
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
why should they? i wore my full piercings also xD
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel - grip falls away says:
you know what
(#)浅倉真 - ohh, a leery Spanish-speaking ancient Druid deity. Spooky. says:
whut??

Be sure to read LINE BY LINE. Aight, another post for you Mushroom aka Shinyi, as requested? WAHAHAH.

The Psycho and So Much More

2009-03-24T14:31:00.006+08:00

PSYCHO!

GROUPIE!

COCAIN!

CRAZY!

MAKES YOU HIGH!

MAKES YOU HIDE!

MAKES YOU REALLY WANNA GO, STOP!

Damn son. System of a Down madness.

EDIT//

Apparently this cute thing is a fusion of Majinbuu & Patrick LOL. I name it MajinPat. She wants it BuuStarr tho. Thats me agreeing. Thanks Shinyi darling. MWAHHAHA.

The A-List

2009-03-24T01:48:00.007+08:00

... right now.

i) EPIK HIGH'S MAP THE SOUL BOOK ALBUM. Yes you got it right, a CD in a fucking book. We're definitely seeing the pioneers to it on the 27th March baby.

ii) System of a Down is so freaking good. They merged above Slipknot, in which I finally realized. Serj, Baron, Shavo & John kick ass. Clean, rock solid music. Extra points.

iii) Marilyn Manson. Once again, one of the smartest guy in the industry. He'll be releasing his new album in May. It'll be full of good shit I know. Also, there'll be a nine-minutes music video. I wonder what masterpiece would come outta Manson.

iv) The All-American Rejects. Ah I loved them since few years back. They should definitely have more albums rather than just three, which is sadly scheduled between long year of intervals. >_>

The Official Release part2

2009-03-22T19:28:00.004+08:00

We regret to inform you that our webpage is facing a temporary
technical problem due to the flood of traffic on March 21st. More
than 300,000 of you visited us at once, resulting in a server crash.
You are absolutely amazing! Thank you for your love and support.
We will have the site up and properly functioning by March 23rd.

revolution begins with one step.

www.mapthesoul.com

A FREAKING PREVIEW! I'm getting more excited as the anticipated day comes. Left my jaw dropped when its stated that THREEHUNDREDTHOUSANDDDDZ fans crashed their webpage at one time. .... dude Epik High has amazing fans. Not to forget me. Man, this is great! I can't wait to get my hands on the book album if possible, but seeing that I can barely order things online.. *hangs head* Need I tell you what distress means? =\

Sze Wei and I went on a date earlier in JJ. Yes I had to deliberately say that as my mother was sorta curious+worried in a way that I was going out with some girl again. Hence the bombards at me right before I left for the movie. Swt lol. I'd take her out if I could, I mean she's such a nice girl. Whats wrong with it? :) We had so much to catch up with, watched The International together, it was pretty much thrash material. I didn't get the plot. Either that or I'm just a plain dumb ass. I enjoyed the evening with her. I was wondering if I sorta bored her to death lol. Iono, I can be boring sometimes. I was a good company, though. XD Hmmm, I wonder when I'll be able to see her again. It's futile to think of it anyway.

Well, I had to flaunt my brand new headphones.

This looked oddly disturbing to me when it first came.

YcajGno plays with her food. PROUD!

Yeah thats my gf there. XD

Sze Wei & YcajGno

I love her!

Rad capture again.

THE NEW MIC!

2009-03-22T01:25:00.003+08:00

I HAZ NEW MIC. YAY.

EDIT//

Was laughing nonstop on the mic with Sasa omg. He told me bout his pet turtle. Since he's in Germany, when its winter the temperature would be too cold apparently for it, while in the house itself it'll be too warm due to the heater. So, he dumped his turtle in the fridge. LOL WTF?! It survived miraculously. I had a fun time laughing. Sadly, it died after two days in the fridge.. Tsk~

EDIT2//

I wish I could go to Vienna's concert. Hopefully there'll be good recordings from Cologne. Kansas beats everything else.

The War of MEGIDDO

2009-03-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

RENTRER EN SOI's gave an emotional last one-man tour live on Christmas Day 2008 at Shibuya Club Quattro. Yes I know I'm way too late for this live, don't start thrashing me down. The last live was just great.

I've always been wondering why do they hold their concerts in such small venues. Was it because they hadn't enough fans? No one would come? Prolly its just another way to get closer to the fans themselves. You know, I wished was standing in the crowd with them, cheering them on their last journey together as a band. They kicked off the live with LAST SCENE, which somehow resulted in me shedding tears instantly when Satsuki started singing. His voice just pierces right through the heart everytime. That part hurt me like bulleyes man. Honestly, I'm not gonna write a long winding review about the live as many others have written better ones than I have. Wait, I have NEVER written any reviews lol. Probably I'll suck at it.

I'm gonna write a tad bit on the songs that were made memories in my head, however. Ah what more can I say? LAST WORD [ ] was just another beautiful ballad by RENTRER EN SOI, they had two version of this, both equally overwhelming. The stage was set in such an ambience that the whole crowd went quiet, thereafter Satsuki unleashing his gorgeous vocals and falsettos. With that much of enthusiasm in him, he brought it. The sorrowful love song of never being able to see someone he loves anymore. Ftw. Seriously, this wasn't the best performance yet mate.

I knew I was bound to cry again. It was SHINWA. Oh fuck, Satsuki's high piercing notes just gets me like no other. The sad story was told with pianos and strings. Before this, I never realized how talented Takumi was. What an eye-opener.

"I'm very sad to think that we can't be members of RENTRER EN SOI like this anymore. Whatever happens in the future, the memories that we have worked hard for over the past seven and a half years will never die. So I want you to hold this scene here tonight in your minds and work hard for your future."

"Until now I have written various lyrics such as 'reality is a chaos' and 'I can't understand the meaning to live,' but I could sing because you listened to my words. We'll end the history of RENTRER EN SOI with the next song. Never forget and let this burn in your memories. Please don't forget the days when we met, when we walked together with smiles and tears. Now I want to send you the words 'thank you' as I am able to continue because you stood by me. We promise to meet you when we are born again. Even if you lose your way in the future, remember this scene, and you will be fine! Thank you!"

They delivered it.

RENTRER EN SOI

The Talking Maggot Maybe

2009-03-20T14:50:00.009+08:00

I'll finally get a mic tomorrow. Things will go fine if I know how to fix the damn thing tho. I wouldn't want Sasa to start typing in German this weekend anyway. So pray for me people! When Jacy starts talking, you're dead. BWAHAHAHAH.

EDIT//

I got the load-on-info about RENTRER EN SOI once again! This time its about Ryo.

well, that man, other than eat and play in live..sleep and sleep and sleep only

he sleep at every opportunity

satsuki always curi tangkap his photo and post in their official blog xD

but ryo is so cute in his semi drooling state XDDD

Every rockstar is a kid at heart I believe. LOL. Cuteness!

EDIT2//

Something is terribly wrong with my hormonal levels. I feel high and gay around 1600 every single friggin time. My friends are having hard time with it lol. WHATS UP WITH THIS GAY!?!??! *spazzspazz*

EDIT3//

Talking to Shinyi about her infatuation Dragonball Z. Those were the times man. Good times seriously. My brother used to have this massive uber collection of Dragonball comics, and both of us were such fans. If only I could turn back the clock lol. Shinyi and I are now reenacting all the stuffs bout this old jewel. I could only remember some of the characters, and dude when I suddenly remembered MajinBuu, I went ASDFG! Omg he was the cutest thing ever. Pink fat monster haha. Somehow somewhat, I have this inevitable fate with pink fatties. Patrick & Majinbuu lol. Dammmn.

Aren't these just cuddly?! Aw man.

The Official Release

2009-03-18T15:33:00.007+08:00

YES. THEY FINALLY CALLED IT IN RIGHT NOW. MAPTHEFUCKINGSOUL IS GONNA BE OUT SOON! HELL YEAH FUCK DUDE.

Its a book album!!!!!!oneleebvenm!!!!

Whats even better, the collaborations are just plan kick-ass material. Tablo, Mithra, MYK and other artists are gonna take the other fucking MCs down man!

Without a label, they're running on their own independently without relying solely on their previous agency anymore. Their music is guaranteed to be raw and deeper. I believe with more lessons to be learnt by us the ignorant freaks.

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Your songs are often lyrical, startling and witty. What inspires you to write the songs? What is your working method while creating an album? Are there defined roles given to each member or do you discuss all the aspects of the album between each other?

Epik High: We are inspired by everything: music, films, books, people, conversations, nature... We believe in opening up all of the senses, including the sixth one, to take in all that exists. Having no prejudice is the most important thing. Inspiration comes from not only beautiful things, but ugly and decrepit things as well. Our entire creative process is detailed in our upcoming book/album.

For a few years now we can see a deep change in the music industry in Korea and all over the world too because of the transition of music into the digital era. Especially in Korea we can notice a real fall in CD sales. How do you see this as major artists? Do you think that the internet is the new market for selling music or that music consumers should stick with CDs?

Epik High: Selling CDs online is important. There aren't many CD stores left in Korea. That's another reason for us creating www.mapthesoul.com. Digital music is great, but the fact that you can't hold it in your hands makes it less personal, don't you think?

Your songs and MVs are sometimes banned in Korea, recently the same has also happened to TVXQ, Rain and Big Bang's Seungri. What do you think about this ban policy? Do you think it's legitimate, or does it take things too far?

Epik High: We think it's bullshit. Our stuff has been banned so many times that it's nothing new to us though. Good art gets out no matter what. To hell with the censors.

... that, my dear friends, is brilliance. Epik High till the death of me! 8D

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Shinyi HAD to tell me Satsuki's to release a new solo album soon. *dies* There I was stumbling over MILLENARIANISM ~ The War of MEGIDDO ~. Here comes another bullet. AND POW!

The Silent Update

2009-03-17T22:35:00.005+08:00

The Rather Bad Infatuation

2009-03-17T19:49:00.005+08:00

O MAI GOD?!

I gotta get a grip right now. Yes.. I can do it.. I can do it.. No I cant. =\ This is beyond words man. Throughout the whole movie, I was literally looking out for him. Only him. ASDF! When he kissed Chi Chi, even worse for me. I WENT BERSERK! SADHDASBVDHSAUVBASUFSA.

Okay this has got to stop.

Justin Chatwin ahhhh.. *____*

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I had so much fun watching the movie with Jaclyn & Joey lol. We basically commented and criticized the movie as we watched. Made some pretty good jokes outta it and managed to have a good loud laugh huh! I guess today was like Laugh-till-You-Die or something? The whole gang of us laughed like hell in Food&Tea as well. We even came up with some laughing waves LOL. Dammmmnnnn. X)