I'm lame. I'm annoying. I'm lazy. I'm pathetic. I'm stupid. I'm obscure. I'm insane. I'm irrational. I'm perverted. I'm fierce. I'm mad. I'm weird. I'm vain.
The name's Jacy Ong. Come rock my world.
Feelings I recollect, through stories that I tell.
When life gives you lemons, you paint that shit gold.
I write however I want to. Constructive criticisms are most welcomed. Read at YOUR own risk. I am not responsible for any severe mental retardation or depression or whatsoever.
My E-mail : jacy_sadgurl91[AT]hotmail.com
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skin by: Jane
Thursday, April 30, 2009 @ 4:36 PM
The Recognition of That One
GOD. Donnie Darko just keeps getting better everytime I watch it honestly. What would you do if you could see the portals to the future? Even if you were to be alive the next day, but to realize that you're alone in the end of everything, what would you do? Well, Donnie chose to leave it all. This movie is such an inspiration. After probably the fourth watch of it, I've finally understood the whole movie.
And need I mention that the soundtrack is just so beautiful? Except for some unappealing classic songs like Duran Duran? Hahah, sorry babe I'm so not into those songs. But yet really, some are really worth listening to as it gives you the chills. Carpathian Ridge somehow gave me the intimidation when I first watched the movie at night. Talk about rolling the film with that particular music, Donnie laying by the road with his bicycle on the other side of it. Good god, it's made of awesome & intrigue. I have watched many movies in my life, this has to be one of the best apart from the SAW series.
Maaaan, I still get the creeps seeing Frank, the giant bunny rabbit. ASDFG!?!?!!! Never liked bunnies in my entire life lol.
Oooooohhhh, Manipulated Living scares me shit outta my anus lol. Illiterally of course doh!
Recently I've been on to so many good shows. Family Guy comes in second after Donnie Darko. It is just another show that is filled with black humour, similar to The Simpsons but considering I never get The Simpsons, Family Guy automatically became my favourite. I fell in love with Stewie instantly omg. He's fulled of diabolical plans and such sophistication in his attitude. That came all from the one year old baby boy. He is extremely cute. \o/
Lunch one fine day.
The hole on Nie's nose. T____________T
See the hole? T________T
I wanted to write Epik High, but iono why Epik Hair came out instead. >_>
I've finally found one person who actually takes liking to Nie lol. YAY! I was back in school helping Amanda with her Physics this time. It was much better than when I was teaching her Chemistry as both of us dread that particular subject. So yeah, Physics worked this time. Owing to the fact that I'm a Physics lover, all things go! IM SUCH AN AWESOME TEACH! XD Throughout the whole evening, she was holding onto Nie all the time! To my surprise actually. I guess he isn't as stinky as he could have been, probably he looked uber dirty but still who cares?! Nie is loved! MWAHAHAHAH. Pwnage.
I've been looking at my virtual calendar these days, counting down I guess. It was 3 rows before this. Now it has come to only one miserable row, signifying one miserable week. Psssht. I hope to get everything prepared for by the next week.
And I guess I made a huge mistake and could never turn back, knowing me.
*tunes in to Donnie Darko soundtrack*
Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 7:31 PM
The Random 101
Now that's one grumpy baby.
Whoa dude, There's so much I wanted to say, but it just ain't right here.
BUT WHAT THE HELL. MYK WAS BORN ON THE 13TH SPETEMBER 19**!!!!!!!! Holy shit. I'm ecstatic. If only he knew. LOL. Jacy fangirling is a bad bad thing, and can be annoying at times. I run outta breathe everytime I try Map The Soul (Worldwide Version). Guess I'll practice more. Nevertheless I think that this version of Map The Soul is way much better. Its full of honesty and rawness. Love it love it.
ANDDDDDDDDDDD. I SAW MAP THE SOUL PROMOTIONAL VIDEO ON TV O MAI GOD?!?!? HOMGWTFBBQ. I was left literally screaming when I first saw the Tablo's mouth in the little television. Frantically I rushed towards my computer as I HAD to tell Yaro babe about it. And right now Yaro is my version of Pemale Anderson and he offered me his merchandise! HUGE PLASTIC SILICON BOOBIES. And you know what, while I was rubbing them, they were leaking their juices off. So much for the 10k silicon tits huh. .... dude. XDDD
Its final, I'm high again.
It's been so many years since my family and I actually went for icecream together. I guess there just wasn't time for it, as my father is busy working in KL right now whereas my brother is currently pursuing his studies in Taylor's. Things just ain't the same as before anymore. Haven't been talking much to my brother since few years back. And yet, when I was bleeding myself away due to the fall, he was the one who took care for me. Mann, I feel like such a jerk sometimes and I can't stop being one somehow. Once it's in you, there's so much to take to change oneself and go back to oneself. Whatever that meant to you guys, but I know what it meant exactly as the understanding of oneself is uniquely mine.
Recently we had the chance of reignition. We went to the icecream bar we used to go a decade back. And you won't be able to imagine the nostalgia surrounding the area that time, it's just the feeling of yearning and longing and reminiscence that makes you wonder, if things could go back to the way they were - when my brother and I were still wrestling against each other, I clearly remembered he rock-bottomed me right on the ground before hahah. And how I used to always watch his back while he games Final Fantasy, Chrono Cross & Xenogears upstairs. I did only the watching as I didn't know how to play such games at all, afraid of losing to those villians and die after. >_> Not that I didn't die in those games before lol. <_<
Speaking about icecream, gratitudos to Amanda for the green tea icecream. Totally enjoyed seeing her creep me out everytime as she just never fail to read my mind. Which is creepy. And yeah, creepy much lol. I doubt I helped her that much with Chemistry as I haven't touched that particular subject in months. But I had fun after all. Nah, see your name?!?! BE HAPPY SQUIRT.
The following day I finally had the chance to meet up with my girls. Haven't really seen them in ages, especially Leeling babi. The 7 of us were screaming our asses off to Coming Soon in the theaters once again lol. I would not recommend the show for you guys out there, as it's a weird play. Iono man, odd feedbacks. We had our lunch at Kenny Roger's, and practically spent the day away talking and talking and talking. Not to mention my stomach was hating my guts like alot. I dunno whats wrong with it man. Fuck. And the day couldn't get anymore better when we went bowling. My precious fingernail chipped off!!!!1!!1one!1eleven1!!!!!! Now I have to grow it all over again. Joykiller much?
My hall of fame.
Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 12:06 AM
The Voice that Never Fails
... to make me cry in the worst way possible lol. Perhaps there are more vocalists as great as him, but I'm standing my ground for SATSUKI. The month of May is just full of new surprises, isn't it? Manson's new album, SATSUKI's solo project, and of course my departure!
I haven't really talked much bout me going for matrics eh. Yennee and I was just talking bout how surreal things are right now for us. We are actually leaving for college. I still remember how was it like to be a form1, and as time grows we became form5s, and how fucking proud we were coz we were. Suet Ching is way down south, I'll be heading way up north, while Joey & Yennee would be far right. Where would these new directions take us to? That, I'm curious.
Damnit, Shinwa is killing me. Fuck, srsly listen to RENTRER EN SOI! XD
No longer confined in a cage, we're just the ugly birds in a beautiful cage don't you think? The exterior may dazzle, but the interior could have been scarred. Have you ever had this gut feeling in your stomach? Wishing that the cogwheels would have turned back for you? I know I certainly did. Sze Wei told me that absence is actually a good thing. Sooner or later, the new replaces and recycles the old away. Yet, its like a slap to the face. Realization and learning were never easy indefinitely.
It's gonna be rollercoaster ride of emotions. There's just so much I would miss. My family and home, my friends and everyone who once walked into my life, having made a distinctive difference in it. Aw, I love you guys. Who knows I might come back one day, changed and no longer tied down by the society. To be honest, I'm kind of excited. 8D
WORLD DOMINATION FTW! Stewie finally got to me. >_>
Ah, I have a feeling I have turned into a different person now. I seem indifferent to people around me. Ignorant oblivious whatever that floats your boat lol. Have I really? :l
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 @ 6:59 PM
The New Shit
Holy shit! Manson's new album will be out end of May! I can't wait for hear his new stuff.
But then again, I have just warmed up to Eat Me, Drink Me which was probably released on 2007 lol. He took a different approach to that album, and surprisingly, I think its working for me. I thought I would never ever hear of him again since his Lest We Forget album. It was a brilliant compilation of his best work since 10 years ago. He's best known as the artist who goes door to door shocking people. He took a break awhile there, apparently he was searching for himself. He even said he would probably never make music ever again, considering the music industry these days is just well, full of shit.
However so, Eat Me, Drink Me is by far the closest Manson will ever get to be unplugged. I guess it's still alot of pretty darkness in his music. He's added new vocabulary to the industry for sure. For himself at least, this new approach - softer and matter-of-fact without the huge, screamy choruses - would make you forget what you knew about this guy and it'll come off like a decent and perhaps rather overwhelming record. People who has never seen this side of him should really try this album out. It's a really raw album, I would say.
Better yet folks, he is finally back and kicking ass with his brand new album titled The High End of Low in stores on 26th May 2009. Damn, I just can't wait. The tracklist is also out, and may I say that it looks just as good as before.
DAMNIT MANSON! Will you ever come to Malaysia to perform!? ..... like our government would allow. Asses.
And too, I think he is so hot. Beauty definitely knows no gender. He redefined the word beauty and took it up to a whole new level.
Hahahahah. I'll never look at anus the same way again. 8DDD
Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 11:12 PM
The Random One
Mhhhmmmmm. My friend and I were talking bout the stuffs we'd do just to kill some time for our lusts. Seriously I'd love to have Manson banging me, and she would love to have it from Miyavi. These two men are just lust, like whoa. I'm shocked myself of why I'd choose Manson. But I reckon he's good in bed. MWAHAHAHHA. It'll be so fuckintastic if we had a foursome oh my god. XDDDD I want Manson so badly its not healthy aw. :(
Sunday, April 19, 2009 @ 3:05 PM
The Almost Goodbye
It's official I think. I'll be leaving for Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah on May 11th. I can't say that I'm looking forward to it, praying hard for my JPA nonetheless. All of states, why Kedah?!?! I'm sure I'll be feasting on rice every single day what the hell. XDDD
It's about time to bid goodbye! Who ever said everything was forever.
i remember my first glimpse of her face
It's definitely a song about what matters most to us. Some may have found what they're looking for in life, whilst some are just lost, don't know where to go, in need for a greater purpose.
I'll definitely bring him along with me. I can't live without Nie.
Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 9:38 PM
Seriously, I wanted to write but my English has gone from bad to worse. Hence this short lame post. Lameeeeeeeeee. Everything's lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I wear long sleeved shirts under short sleeved shirts under long sleeved shirts fucker!
Today was spectacular, however.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @ 2:54 PM
Either that I'm lazy or something I dunno man.
I am somehow attracted to Manson, alot. There is just something about this man, that is worth my time. Hear me when I say this, Manson might be shy and quiet but when he opens his mouth, pearls and diamonds would fall outta it. You'll be surprised how articulately astute he is. Period.
Thursday, April 9, 2009 @ 9:03 PM
The Brian of all the Brians.
Brian Hugh Warner, notoriously known as Marilyn Manson
No, my title wasn't due to a typo at all. You'll see why I chose my title like that.
He is probably one of the smartest creature I've ever seen in my life. I still remember clearly who introduced me to his music, it was Doug, when I was in form 1 or 2. We haven't been in touch for years omg, he was the typical kind of guy who was well, depressed and shit. On drugs maybe. I didn't really care about that anyway.
Marilyn Manson. It's so fucking sad everyone misjudge him just coz of his shaved eyebrows, thick red lips, those black dark eyes, and lastly his rather satanic black metal music. Man honestly, I was freaked when I saw him. Can't be blamed eh, for I was just a young weed back then. Manson is just a very well spoken and intelligent person, he certainly does not look like it, but if you see his interviews, it shows without doubt. This man, he contradicts to our beliefs and popular public images. I can't believe he was the one blamed whenever any violence happened.
"This is probably the sickest group ever promoted by a mainstream record company." quoting some senator.
Apparently on April 20, 1999, ( Don't think I dunno what you people are thinking, its not current! ) two Columbine High School students walked into their school, shot and killed 13 people, injured many, before turning the guns on themselves. That horrible massacre shocked the country, eventually leading to many assumptions and accusations. And well, in the end, fingers all pointed to the skinny tall man whose face was always caked in white paint, dressed in goth garbage. Yes, Manson was the one to blame. .... or so you people thought?
"I can definitely see why the'd pick me, because I think its easy to throw my face on the television because I am, in the end, the poster board for fear. Because I represent what everyone is afraid of, bacause I do and say what I want. The two by-products of that tragedy were violence and entertainment and gun control. And how perfect coz that was the two things we are gonna talk about in our upcoming election. Well then we forgot about money influence(?) and we forgot about our president who was shooting bombs overseas. Yet, I'm the bad guy because I sing some rock 'n' roll songs. Who's the bigger influence? The president of the United States, or Marilyn Manson? I'd like to think me, but I'd go with the president."
Now wasn't it slightly different than what we'd usually think?
"There's floods. There's AIDS. There's murder. Cut the comercials.Buy the Colgate, if you have bad breath they're not gonna talk to you. If you have pimples, the girls are not gonna fuck you. And its just a campaign of fear and consumption."Interviewer : If there was anything you'd like to say to the kids in Columbine and the people of the community, what would you say to them if they were right here right now?
Manson : I wouldn't say a single word to them. I would listen to what they had to say, and thats what no one did.
See what I mean right now?
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 6:59 PM
The Lost Sheep
.... is still alive!
Look at teh freakin shoulder pads! <_<
I'll be going for Wang Lee Hom's concert on May 2nd. WTF? I don't even know that guy and his songs. @@
To those people out there who thinks that they could actually DOWNLOAD tshirts, here's some cheap ass teesharts, please go to http://www.shirtdownloadblog.com/shirts/more_shirts/craploadofshirts/fuck_off/no_shirts/just_kidding/here_are_the_shirts/epikhaiii-shirt.shrt
Dude, I mean downloading music is acceptable. But downloading tshirts?! You are stupid.
Let music seize the day honey.
Saturday, April 4, 2009 @ 9:36 PM
Well, its only a semi-hiatus. I'll promise a convincing update after I get my pictures! :)
YcajGno Maggot + MapTheSoul = AWESOMENESS.
Well, I'm still waiting till my father agrees on it.