...She fucks like a star.



I'm lame. I'm annoying. I'm lazy. I'm pathetic. I'm stupid. I'm obscure. I'm insane. I'm irrational. I'm perverted. I'm fierce. I'm mad. I'm weird. I'm vain.

The name's Jacy Ong. Come rock my world.

Feelings I recollect, through stories that I tell.

When life gives you lemons, you paint that shit gold.

I write however I want to. Constructive criticisms are most welcomed. Read at YOUR own risk. I am not responsible for any severe mental retardation or depression or whatsoever.

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Wednesday, January 28, 2009 @ 11:53 PM
The Unification of Teh Ongs

Yo people whats up. 

Been away for quite some time now, it was freaking Chinese New Year mannn! It has been a good one for me, really enjoyed every single bit of it heh. The whole family took a trip down to Malacca to usher in the New Year. Atmosphere was great for me, as I met my dearly-missed cousins from Australia and Taiping although the weather was like steamy fucking hot. In fact it's so hot right now geez. CUSS GLOBALZ WARMINGS! 

Anyways cut the driftings. Felt extremely awkward there at first, my brother and I just stayed in the room doing probably the most boring thing on earth lol. My cousins took the initiative to get us into the scene together by invading our rooms hah. Didn't work anyway until the next day loomed. Started playing gambling with all of them, screaming our heads off when we get either too many pictures or just plain blackjack! I have to admit, I'm kinda addicted to it lol. Probably coz it was my first time gambling with money. Some just have all the luck, while some just don't. (Like me lahhhhh. DOOOOUCHE.) But hey, I won back a bit. At least. 

The most guilty thing I ever did was that I actually jumped off my own ship and flew to my cousin's lol. I had such a hard decision to make, whether to join them back in Malacca or just get my arse back to Ipoh. With much hesistation, I refused to follow them. But maybe it was meant to be, I bumped into my cousins in Burger King. Hence, the sudden decision that had me ended up in Malacca once again instead of going back to Ipoh. Can you like imagine how many hours I had to rot in the car again?! x_x

Ipoh - Malacca      Malacca - Sungai Buloh     Sungai Buloh - Malacca    Malacca - Ipoh

Despite the extremities in the hours, I never regretted jumping ship after the time my cousins and I've spent during the three days together. Pei Lu, Zheng & Peggy were the Aussie cousins whom I wasn't really close with yet. Hah, it has all changed for the better now. Together with Wei, Ren, Jin Hui & Yao Yao, we play, we talk, we sleep, we joke, we dirtify, we gamble and we kick some really good ass. 

The trip simply ended with something really worth remembering for me. I, Jacy Ong, am well-known for my bad Chinese and Hokkien lol. Yeah call me a banana~ I usually have trouble communicating whenever back in Malacca as I speak English most of the time. That explains why I dislike going back to Malacca sometimes. But my thougts have changed. I'm no longer the one who doesn't know how to call the uncle and aunts in the family tree in the correct Hokkien terms! No longer the one who is shallow in these things.

After the 4 hours late night talk we had together, I'm learning to appreciate the other fmaily members more. I'm learning to never let our family history repeat itself again. I'm learning to love each other without any hatred. I'm learning that sacrifices are something beautiful.

Nevertheless it has been one hell of a great trip with them. Damn, I miss them.


I miss you idiot. =D




Image heavy! 



After wiping the table at some roti canai store lol. ;_____;

YaoYao, YcajGno & Peggy

Peggy & YcajGno

Sexy Mama & YcajGno

Pooh & Nie mixing together.


YcajGno, Pooh & YaoYao

Zheng's iPhone.

Zheng's iPhone part2.

The money-making crotch. Our money is dirty. 


Pooh's elongation & YaoYao

YcajGno, Me. 




Ah I'll be taking my driving test in early Februaryy. Wish I could pass! ^-^

Sunday, January 18, 2009 @ 8:51 PM
The Unexpected Yearning for You

Finally an update after a couple of days!

I went out with Van and Doong Popo today, missed them heaps. Haven't seen them since the last freaking day of SPM man. Van had her hair dyed bright streaks of red. looked good on her. Doong hasn't changed much, as lovely as ever. There really hasn't been any good movies on the theatres so far. Sooooo, the three of us opted to watch something outta the box! Outta our boundaries!

We watched a movie called Maut. Yep, you got that right yo. It was a malay movie we watched, filmed in Malaysia itself. We thought of it as a hopeful horror movie, but didn't really turn out as expected. The plot sucked honestly, although it did convey some useful messages to us all. But hey, we were laughing our asses off at the rather amateur yet funny casts lol. The way they talked and expressed their feelings were either too bland and slow and annoying, or too hilarious that Van Doong Jac practically laughed like nobody's business in the theatre hah. The lady beside me was giving me the scary vibes but I don't give a fuck bout her. XD

Maybe you guys should check that movie out after all, for the laughs! It was unbearable despite the boring and confusing plot behind it. There were like Ramadhan, Syawal etc etc and we didnt even know anything bout those Islamic terminology! D:

I've started my computer lessons like a few days ago. Started off with Excel, thought it'd be easy stuff but it's not as easy as I actually thought it would have been. First, its 24/7 nonstop typing-your-damn-fingers-off. Second, there are many formulas to bear in mind! Third, the mouse annoys me sometimes. Fourth, its too cold sometimes. I can barely type. ;_____;

Other than that, the lessons were good! There are little kids learning as well. Cute lil kids. One small girl turned behind and looked at me strangely, I had to wave to show her that I'm INCREDIBLY friendly yo! Then she seemed scared and turned away. Daaaamn. She had such a cute mushroom head I had to make her mine. =(

You're mineeeee hohoho. This goes out to some idiot. X)


Oh I love watching 1 Night 2 Days, it has almost become an obsession. It is actually lol. Its such a fun-packed show and I can't get enough of the 6 hosts! Especially Kang Ho Dong, Kim C and Eun Ji Won. DDD:

Kang Ho Dong with the farmer's hat // Kim C with teh shades // Eun Ji Won with the white cap



Just thought I'd post this for fun. LOL.

Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
ahhhhh i seee
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
wow his name is so easy
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
inverted A and l
eternal mourning says:
yeah ^^
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
dont swing that yo!
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
it might come off
eternal mourning says:
eternal mourning says:
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
isnt it heavy -_________-
eternal mourning says:
imagine you're sitting there
eternal mourning says:
and suddenly
eternal mourning says:
there comes a penis flying
eternal mourning says:
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
eternal mourning says:
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
only a penis?
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:

Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
its scary
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
gimme a normal one plz!
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
oh i saw your ice penis lol
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
huuuuugeeeee maaaaaan
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
no one would be able to handle that
eternal mourning says:
ah i'm sure you could do it
eternal mourning says:
it was big, yes.... BUT FULL OF PASSION
eternal mourning says:
and stuff
eternal mourning says:
Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
full of passion LOL

Hellborn Ycaj Disturbed Angel says:
its ice!


Now thats what I call HOT baby.

TAGHeuer ftw. I can't believe my mom has it and I don't. D:

PATRICKKKK. Pink Star yo.

Nie! Its all about the Nie! X)

The dork.

I bring him everywhere with me.

Neat&decent looking picture of Jacy Ong.

Van appears to be really small. HAH.

YcajGno & some mushroom head boy. :33

Simply Jacy Ong~

Thursday, January 15, 2009 @ 7:14 PM
The Feeling of Deference

Got nudged by Shinyi, so here you go my dear its updated yo! =D

So fucking bored staying at home these days. I'm not even working man, talk about getting myself a job is so damn difficult as I wont have transport to go anyways, not unless my shift is at night or something. But what the fuck lol.

So, I went back to school on Monday! For some official and personal business. Honestly, I was intimidated to enter the school compound. Maybe its because I'm no longer a student there so people might regard me as some stranger thus, feeling all alienated there. Moreover I went alone lol. But nah, that feeling lasted only for like a few minutes. The very first person I met was Valerie. Managed to catch up with her a bit on stuffs, and boy am I glad or what to bump into someone I actually spent time with last time. Both of us missed Kah Men aw. I hope you're doing well in Penang. =D

I then continued wandered around frantically to look for some teacher. Was accompanied by Phyliss for like an hour in the school. Yeah, felt really thankful coz others were having their lessons and I was being such a good person by not causing any inconvenience to both teachers and hard-working students. Lol yeah hardworking. -_-"" Talked to Li Tng for a bit, then I started sweating lol. It was like being dumped into some pressure cooker or something. Oh well. xD

Some claimed that I have changed compared to how I was last time. Physically and mentally maybe? Hahha, I'm happy with how I am right now though. And it was all good compliments yo. Ahh, I also managed to steal some time off my teachers. Had some really good chats with them. I even stormed into Puan Authar's room and started talking dunnowhat with her lol. Here I present you some amusing lines of the week!

Puan Azizah : Saya ajar kelas-kelas yang low quality this year. (LOL, and she started listing out the classes.)
Puan Habibah : Ehh, kamu sudah berubah banyak! Semakin lawa! (^______^)
Puan Loh : I give you permission to walk around the school looking for teachers!

Was with my student most of the time, fooling around. She brought alot of perfumes for me! Well just for sniffing only. T_T But she gave me something sweet, but its empty hah. XDD Saw some idiot there as well. You know who you are heh. Will whack you next time.

Overall it had been a good visit. Will definitely return with friends next time lol.


Before heading to school.

A small little gift by my student.

YcajGno & Student.


-enter crap here-

Freaky Granny Smith green apple. Whats up with those white dots.

Freaky persimmons omg.


// Nailed the first verse of Fan. MWAHAHAHAHAHA GO MEEEEE. Still yet to tackle the remaining ones. Yeah I've got the balls. Go me.

Friday, January 9, 2009 @ 1:48 PM
The Spirituality Journey 101

I've been watching The Oprah Winfrey Show alot these days. Even when I was having my trials, or even still knocking my head off studying at home, I'd still save some time for her shows. Her shows are just so insightful and penetrative in the best wayspossible. It really makes you think deep about whatever that is happening around you, what has already happened and to even prace yourself for whatever thats gonna happen soon. Ah, good show. =)

Let this woman give you a motivation on being a tad more appreciative of what you've got. Stop all the fucking whines and complaints about the petty things in your fucking life. (I cant promise I wont be a hypocrite in the future but hey what the heck, this woke me up.)

Jacqui Saburido is a living example of what true spirituality means. When she was just 19 years old, Jacqui and her friends were hit by a drunken driver. Two passengers were killed instantly. Jacqui was alive but suffered devastating burns on nearly 60 percent of her body. After 40 surgeries, Jacqui remained horribly disfigured. And, even though her everyday life is a struggle, Jacqui said she's glad to have survived.

"I'm glad, because I want to live," she said. "I have a lot of things that I didn't, I haven't had time to do yet."

Michael says Jacqui's fight to live life every single day can be attributed to the strength of her soul. "It's the real definition of beauty," he says. "That's very powerful."

Extracted from Oprah.com


Ah, isn't she just a perfect living example to all of us out here? Everyday is a fight for her. Waking up and getting dressed early in the morning are already a fight for her. What an amazing woman. I could never become like her, I know my abilities way too well lol. She's such an inspiration, for putting things into the right perspective in life. All we ever do is we get up, we worry, we complain about not having this and that, we blame others for the cause of anything bad that has ever happened to us, we were never thankful with what we had. D:


Also, I have noticed that most people are just so dissatisfied with how they look like. Ok maybe I do rant abit about how I look like, but hey I wasn't taking it seriously at all. I know what I've got, I know what I am made of, I know what I am. And All I ever want is to stay healthy, that explains the daily regime 45 minutes jogging of mine. I do not wish to become a freakin stick, sticks may even malfunction sooner than me!

What do you really want in your life? Ask yourself that question. Is it really materials that are only under your possession until you actually die? Or is it being unconditionally loved and treasured and appreciated and respected for even the mosy slightest thing you did? Hmmm. Dont be so fucking infuriated that you havent got this and that, instead think of what has your body and mind done for you. After dunno how many years of living you've gone through, your body is actually still working for you man. It did not collapse, instead it worked for you. Even up till now, it is still working for you, not letting the seconds of your life waste away. And be thankful with that.

If you still insist on thinking everything is falling apart right in front of your eyes and you feel like slitting wrists, jumping off some fucking building, well then just do it. And soon you'll come to know that even the most basic thing you left unnoticed all this while, you were never grateful of. Breathing.


Haha, I didn't sound like myself eh? I have a heart too. Its alive. =)


Jacqui Saburido, living with her head held high and still forgives.
May this be a lil spiritual lesson for you guys out there. =)

Wednesday, January 7, 2009 @ 8:01 PM
The Tagged Part3

Tagged by Sze Wei. =)

Boy, I'm in a serious debt here. I chose to only do this. HAH.

[01] Name: Jacy Ong Pei Yee.

[02] Nickname: Jacy.
[03] Married: Nah.
[04] Zodiac Sign: Virgo.
[05] Gender: Female.
[06] Age: 17.
[07] High School: SMK Convent Ipoh.
[08] College: Not yet.
[09] Height: 168 cm.
[10] Weight: *speechless*
[11] Do you like yourself: Yeh.
[12] Piercings: Ears.
[13] Right or left: 1 on my left, 3 on my right.
[14] Are you a freak : Yes totally.
[15] Hair: Dark brown hazelnut-ish due to severe damage.
[16] Skin: Fair.
[17] Allergic: None that I know of.
[18] What are you doing now: Chewing gum, texting, listening to music, watching tv, and settling my debt of tags.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Continue chewing gum, texting, listening to music, watching tv and maybe still doing tags.
[20] What will you do 10 years later : I can't predict whats in store for me in the future, but I hope it'll be a blessed one.

[21] Living: With my mother, usually.
[22] Siblings(included you): 2
[23] Eldest: My brother.
[24] Youngest: Myself.
[25] Love/hate your family: Lovelovelove.

[26] You found your another half: No.
[27] If yes, who is he/she: -

[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: Someone who will love me back just as much.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 3 maybe? I didn't keep count.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Lol yeah.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Uh huh.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Yeh.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: I'd prefer to keep it un-disclosed.
[34] Ever argue with your other half: Yeh.
[35] You with your other half since: What do you fucking care lol.
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: Bisexual.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: Its just the feeling that you get inside.
[38] You and your other half in which stage: What stage?
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: Both? LOL.
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: There's impermanence in every relationships.

[41] Your first best friend: Forgot.
[42] Your first enemy: Hmmmm.
[43] The friend you love the most: I love.. well most of them.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): Do you actually think I carry THAT much of a hatred? -_-""
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: They're all beautiful.
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: They're all handsome.

[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Backstabbers.
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Backstabbers.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Nop. Maybe? Nop.
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: No.
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: No idea.
[52] If your friend betray you: No idea.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: No idea.
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: I'll consider.
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: I'm already in love.

[56] Are you a good student: I think I am. Sometimes its the other way round. It depends actually, what you were doing, what you are doing, and what you're about to do.
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: Sometimes.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Alot. They're all dedicated teachers anyway. Give them credit. =)
[59] Always late to school/college: Not even once! WOOOOO.
[60] Your class: FTW MAN.
[61] You love your seniors: Some.
[62] Senior who you love the most: It changes.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good, I would say.
[64] Excellent result classmate: There are a few!
[65] Laziest classmate: There are a few!

[66] Smart people: Everyone is smart.
[67] Stupid people: Everyone is stupid.
[68] Good looking people: Those who try to look good.

[69] Ugly people: -
[70] Funny people: ALOT.
[71] Cute people: They get on my nerves. (except for cute lil kids and babies or any other round stuffs)
[72] Bad people: There are alot out there.
[73] Honest people: None.
[74] Acting people: Alot.
[75] You are what kind of people: Paranoid, stupid, careless, reckless, indecisive, intolerant, freak, etc etc.

[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes.
[77] Hugs or kisses: Hugs definitely.
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller.

[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach and arms.
[81] Listener or talker: Both.
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic.
[83] Good husband or Good Father: BOTH.

[84] Age to get marry: Iono.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): Depends on the frequencies of unprotected sex.
[86] Career: My passion.
[87] Salary: Moar.
[88] Retirement age: Depends.
[89] Properties value: Heaps?
[90] Wishes: I wish everyone would be happy. You can fly, you got to fly sky high.


I'm so below par right now. I already spent 50 bucks for my credit within this week fuck. It'll most probably increase even more, giving me more depression as I'm seriously, gradually, slowly, getting deprived of money. DDD: But oh well I guess its worth it. =D

I came back from my driving lesson like an hour ago. It was pretty good so far, did 2 hours and I'm already getting the hang of it. Soooo, I hope to be a perfect driver after passing the other 8 long hours! Ahh, I'm so pumped up for drivingg, though I sometimes dread sitting enxt to my instructor as he smokes and swears! Today he kept patting my head, calling me a good girl. And he kept touching my hand. O___O Maybe it was too delicate. LOL. But still. x_X

Apparently Tablo was voted the number 1 brain among celebrities. He even tallied his own votes. *O*

Younha is also another bright talent in her own. Strong vocals, petite girl. Definitely another yes-yes in my list. Memory was such a painful song to listen to, wasn't a song that she would usually sing coz it was composed by Tablo himself. Ah, so expected from him as it really had this EpikHigh-esque feel to it.


My newest torture pet.

My newest torture pet part2.

Check out my round face. XD

I can read nothing but the RM788NETT lol. ;_;

From left to right: Nie, Daddy & Jared.

Peace homies.

Monday, January 5, 2009 @ 5:04 PM
The Tagged Part2

Tagged by Jun Ting. =)

I wont bother listing the friggin instructions here coz I can neither copy nor paste anything from YOUR FREAKING BLOG.

5 facts about myself :
i) I'm currently taking care of my brother's tortoise. I think it doesnt like me lol.
ii) My fingernails are growing except my middle ones.
iii) Ich liebe dich, Epik High.
iv) I miss AddMath.
v) I still think about you.

5 secrets about myself :
Secrets are meant to be kept to oneself, loser.

State 5 facts of yourself that people know :
i) I swear.
ii) I sing.
iii) I play teh guitar.
iv) My hair used to be very.. *coughcough*
v) I love AddMath & Physics.

State 5 facts of yourself that people dont know :
i) I can sing well! D:
ii) I can rapppp.
iii) I watch pornz.
iv) I enjoy snapping pictures of myself.
v) I still use my mother's cosmetic products.

State 5 bad behaviors of yourself :
i) I swear.
ii) I bite my fingernails.
iii) I tend to be cold and ignorant. Very.
iv) I look at people for nothing.
v) I'm too evil.

State 5 good sides of you :
i) I'm too good to be true.
ii) I'm very tolerant.
iii) I remember.
iv) I'm, maybe, too friendly.
v) I love myself and everything else.

Now tag 0 people!

Sunday, January 4, 2009 @ 10:05 PM
The Recollections

what the raining sky wants to tell you is..
you're not the only one like that.

to be strong is to understand weakness
to be weak is to have fears
to have fears is to have somehting precious to you
to have something precious to you is to be strong.

while thinking about how I want to erase the wounds of others
I also thought about the many would I have dealt throughout my life
sometimes intentional, sometimes unintentional, my faults and mistakes...
even now,
i'm very sorry,
i want to become a good preson. really.

when tears wouldnt form
the books, movies and music
that cried in my place.. i'm quite fortunate.

if you have not heard in your entire life
that you're crazy
it means you have not once
taken a risk nor challenged yourself.

would you only becoming unhappy
makes me happy
in the end would that really be happiness?

do you have a wound
do you have a scar
are you wandering in the darkness
are you alright
i understand.

its a dirty world
without any regard to my opinions.

what is nothing to you
can be love to me.

a day so wonderful that
i dont even want to remember it.

becoming an adult doesnt mean
becoming a better person.

the path i want to take, the path i have to take
and.. the path im taking.. they're all different
what should i do?

even in a place you think is dirty and messy
wonder exists

Saturday, January 3, 2009 @ 10:29 PM
The Separation

Tut mir leid, kids.

Chapter 1.

Last Tuesday (dunno when, forgot already) we had a farewell party for Yie Ping. She'll be leaving for KL exactly tomorrow to start her college thingy in Sunway. As far as I know, Loshini for KYUEM, Cheeyunn for Australia, Kahmen for INTI and more. Damn, they're leaving one by one, and yeah I know soon it'll be me. It'll soon be all of you. Man, I'm so not ready to leave this place yet.

This is Jacy.
Pei Yee ah, you..
Are you doing well?

Anyways, we had fun that night. I shall let the pictures below, do teh talking yo.

Jacy Ong Pei Yee.

I am so not friggin satisfied with Yeolde English for serving me the stunted retarded juice LOL. Yes its the left hand side one. Compared to Evon's which came just like that, mine seemed pretty much scrimped. -_-"" (It didn't really taste very banana-ish anyway lol)

My Garden Salad Part1. Beautiful?

My Garden Salad Part2. Beautifool!

Cake. Red. Chocolate. Strawberries. Farewell. Goodbye.

One step closer to separation.

Chapter 2.

It has been raining whole day today. Gave me such a cooling yet very humid feeling. Perfect time to sleep in though, since I woke up early in the morning today and woke some idiot up. Well, tomorrow the idiot will wake me up in return. XD Bad news, I ran outta credit today. There were like only 4 fucking cents left. I'm sure its because of You, and friggin Celcom users. Ugh, sickening. I'm in a foul mood all of a sudden right now. Damn you hormones.

Lol, other than that I've been quite happy nowadays. =))

UBER CUTENESSSSS! My baby boyyyy, Nie. X33333

Shall update something more meaningful tomorrow. Thats when I get recollective of my past.